Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))

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  • MoHousdon
    MoHousdon Posts: 8,723 Member
    I feel like I've really accomplished something in the morning when I finally catch up with this thread.

    I'm sure my employer would beg to differ.

    Likewise.

    I don't want to be at work today. I'd much rather be at home recouping in my nice warm bed.

  • quiksylver296
    quiksylver296 Posts: 28,439 Member
    MoHousdon wrote: »
    MoHousdon wrote: »
    MoHousdon wrote: »
    MoHousdon wrote: »
    lbking94 wrote: »
    I found this thread last night after looking for posts to make myself feel better for once again thinking I could eat out of the carton of ice cream without over doing. Like I hadn't learned that lesson already. The first two pages made me laugh til I cried, I so related to playing games with a food log that only I see. I didn't realize I wasn't alone. Thank you. I will be returning often.

    Welcome to our safe place!


    We have cookie butter, Oreos and Poptarts, and Funyuns.

    FTFY

    Blech. I hate Funyuns. And where's my turtle cake @quiksylver296 ?

    I told you! I ate it!

    When did you say that? I don't think we can be friends anymore if you're just going to eat cake and rub it in my face and not in a good way either.

    On my newsfeed, when you asked what turtle cake was. Not my fault, I didn't bake it. Someone brought it in and gave me a piece. You want me to share my ONE piece?!? (And I took a small piece, too, trying to maintain some sort of control.)

    No, I guess not. I will just be over here wishing I'd had some turtle cake too. I will just drink my protein shake and pretend it's cake.

    Didn't you post this once upon a time? :D

    k5g0aeia3kas.png
  • smashley_mashley
    smashley_mashley Posts: 589 Member
    I have an nsv combined with a confession: yesterday I did finally go shopping for capris pants an spent the entire afternoon in the mall (I walked the length of it four times and got some decent exercise). I was pleasantry surprised that all the stores I went to had my size given that for past 4 years I was shopping in the plus size stores for pants (granted, I was not aware that a lot of stores actually carried up to a size 16-18 as the stores I shopped at in my early twenties when I was thinner never carried larger than a 12; I was to embarrassed with my self to even look - I guess tastes change a bit the older you get).

    Anywho, when I told the store staff in several of the stores I needed a size 14 they asked me to try on a size 12. I knew they wouldn't fit but I tried them on anyways (I was right btw). The NSV = people looking at me think I am smaller than I am. The confession: I popped a button on one of the size 12 as I was trying to do them up!. I tried tying the button back on the capris as they wanted $75 (which is WAY too much money IMHO) but said screw it and just left. I thought it was pretty funny but it made me feel good to know that I don't look as big to others as I feel sometimes.

    Sometimes though I wish I was more proportionate. I can now fit into medium sized shirts but I need such large bottoms in comparison. Dresses look so funny on me as they are either too big on top but fit in the middle or fit on top but too tight in the middle- stupid genetics.
  • quiksylver296
    quiksylver296 Posts: 28,439 Member
    yex200 wrote: »
    I've relapsed in my eating disorder. I only went over 500 calories ingested once this week, and I refuse to log my exercise because I don't believe that I actually burned that much. I have a concussion, and I'm not supposed to work out, so I do it all in secret so no one notices. I also have started weighing myself at least twice a day, never content with the number.

    Oh my, hugs to you! Sending you love and strength.
  • quiksylver296
    quiksylver296 Posts: 28,439 Member
    Someone is screaming "it's a go*d**n f***ing violation, right there!!!" at top volume in my office. It's a big office. I don't know what is going on, but someone is p!ssed off. LOL
  • crosbylee
    crosbylee Posts: 3,455 Member
    I have an nsv combined with a confession: yesterday I did finally go shopping for capris pants an spent the entire afternoon in the mall (I walked the length of it four times and got some decent exercise). I was pleasantry surprised that all the stores I went to had my size given that for past 4 years I was shopping in the plus size stores for pants (granted, I was not aware that a lot of stores actually carried up to a size 16-18 as the stores I shopped at in my early twenties when I was thinner never carried larger than a 12; I was to embarrassed with my self to even look - I guess tastes change a bit the older you get).

    Anywho, when I told the store staff in several of the stores I needed a size 14 they asked me to try on a size 12. I knew they wouldn't fit but I tried them on anyways (I was right btw). The NSV = people looking at me think I am smaller than I am. The confession: I popped a button on one of the size 12 as I was trying to do them up!. I tried tying the button back on the capris as they wanted $75 (which is WAY too much money IMHO) but said screw it and just left. I thought it was pretty funny but it made me feel good to know that I don't look as big to others as I feel sometimes.

    Sometimes though I wish I was more proportionate. I can now fit into medium sized shirts but I need such large bottoms in comparison. Dresses look so funny on me as they are either too big on top but fit in the middle or fit on top but too tight in the middle- stupid genetics.

    I have the opposite problem. My bottom half is shrinking, and I suffer from Noassatall, so jeans always seem to fall off me. However, the girls will probably keep me in a 2x shirt most of the time. I am hoping to get at least down to a large with weight loss. Here's hoping!!
  • kecmw25
    kecmw25 Posts: 2,743 Member
    edited May 2015
    MoHousdon wrote: »
    Here are pictures of my fur babies. I am WAY behind on this, but I wanted to join in on the sharing party.

    This is Owen. I fear he's not to return. It's been over 3 weeks now and haven't seen him. That makes me sad because he was my baby boy.

    6enh80drb2ti.jpg

    This is Lucy and Otis. Lucy is the big (for her breed, she's actually on the small side) Staffy, and Otis is the little one in the background.

    qtlw994hg1gz.jpg

    Awww, they're all so cute but I love big dogs so can I have Lucy?

    ETA: I love their names and I'm really sorry about Owen
  • tulips_and_tea
    tulips_and_tea Posts: 5,741 Member
    KylerJaye wrote: »
    pofoster21 wrote: »
    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    brandi9172 wrote: »
    I confess that most of the threads in the Chit - Chat section drive me absolutely bonkers. "Would you kiss the person above" "Compliment the person above" Blah blah blah. I guess because it's blatant compliment fishing maybe...or perhaps because there are a ton of married/partnered people out there flirting and being inappropriate with other people. I don't know...but it grosses me out. So I try not to look at even the titles...and I never click in. Did it once...won't make that mistake again, lol. :dizzy:

    I hear ya! I'm single and I've honestly never been to that thread! Seriously search my name you won't find it! Not a fan, I'm here for my health not to find a date :)

    Well now you are not really single...

    But I am and I can't stand when people start all the overt flirting and innuendo. I leave those threads immediately. That is not why I am here. If I wanted that I would go to match.com.

    I tried match.com once and they literally refused my membership! I got a msg that said they didn't have anyone that would match my profile/questionnaire info, and to try again at a later date!

    It's hysterical and depressing all at once!

    I think that's great! That means you are unique and not at all like all the others there lying about themselves and trying to become someone (falsely) just to attract someone else. Yeah, that's sure to last, right? No. I'm sorry because that was probably an upsetting experience, but I'm 100% sure you're better off that way!
  • tulips_and_tea
    tulips_and_tea Posts: 5,741 Member
    m1xm0d3 wrote: »
    BZAH10 wrote: »
    m1xm0d3 wrote: »
    BZAH10 wrote: »
    m1xm0d3 wrote: »
    I used to break spaghetti into 3 when my kids were little. I still break it in half. I rarely order it in a restaurant because I don't like the looong strands.

    I also never order ribs. I hate getting my hands dirty, even if it's because of delicious ribs.

    I've never been a fan of spaghetti. I mean it's ok but def not something I would ever order when dining out. Maybe I haven't had GOOD spaghetti. But then again, I am not a saucy guy so I tend to like more noodle than sauce. And a noodle is just a noodle, correct?

    I crush ribs without second thought. I do however go through a TON of wet naps cuz I hate that sticky feeling on my hands and face.

    What??? Pretty sure your profile pic says otherwise! Haha. Those scrawny arms in the picture make me laugh every time.

    LMAO touché... I am also not a fan of mayo. Stupid skinny arm child proof tops (They ARE child proof, right?) :p

    Aren't all jars?? I used to have this small rubber gripper thing that I used constantly to open jars. It mysteriously disappeared from my kitchen. I didn't lose it. Husband is retired and spends way more time in the kitchen than I do, so naturally I blamed him. I throw a new temper tantrum now every time I cannot open a jar and my gripper is no where to be found. Never can remember to buy another one at the store! Simple solution, but temper tantrums are much more fun.

    In a pinch, a sandwich baggie will usually work. :)

    Yes, thank you and also to @peleroja and @kelly_c_77. I have resorted to all of those tactics and they work, but I still wonder what happened to my gripper!

    I still blame my husband. I'm at work, he's at home and he just called me a few minutes ago because when he took the milk out of the fridge earlier it was partially frozen. Wanted to know what setting to put the temperature dial on. Welp, we've had that SAME fridge for 13 years, shouldn't be that hard to figure out, right?
  • rungirl1973
    rungirl1973 Posts: 2,559 Member
    KylerJaye wrote: »
    pofoster21 wrote: »
    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    brandi9172 wrote: »
    I confess that most of the threads in the Chit - Chat section drive me absolutely bonkers. "Would you kiss the person above" "Compliment the person above" Blah blah blah. I guess because it's blatant compliment fishing maybe...or perhaps because there are a ton of married/partnered people out there flirting and being inappropriate with other people. I don't know...but it grosses me out. So I try not to look at even the titles...and I never click in. Did it once...won't make that mistake again, lol. :dizzy:

    I hear ya! I'm single and I've honestly never been to that thread! Seriously search my name you won't find it! Not a fan, I'm here for my health not to find a date :)

    Well now you are not really single...

    But I am and I can't stand when people start all the overt flirting and innuendo. I leave those threads immediately. That is not why I am here. If I wanted that I would go to match.com.

    I tried match.com once and they literally refused my membership! I got a msg that said they didn't have anyone that would match my profile/questionnaire info, and to try again at a later date!

    It's hysterical and depressing all at once!

    This happened to me with eHarmony. Talk about a massive waste of my time. They make you answer like a bajillion questions and then say, "Nope."
  • thepinkshoe
    thepinkshoe Posts: 26 Member
    I ate a whole block of chocolate in one sitting today :( I then did 80 minutes on the exercise bike so I wouldn't completely ruin my day. Feel sick in the stomach now after all of that and lots of water.
  • tulips_and_tea
    tulips_and_tea Posts: 5,741 Member
    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    pofoster21 wrote: »
    FroggyBug wrote: »
    Chaelaz wrote: »
    @JPW1990 I know it isn't rare. Have many a friends who upon getting divorced suddenly find themselves in the company of much younger company. I shake my head as a older guy, but honestly there is a LOT of draw to it. Mostly it can capture that feeling of fleeting youth. Ya know, Jerry Lee Lewis "Middle Aged Crazy, trying to prove he still can...".

    I am pretty grounded, but who knows. Was just thinking out loud. No plans for divorce or younger women at this point. :)

    I have to admit, this made me pretty sad. I hope I'm youthful enough to keep my man....

    Your youth won't keep him. Staying independent, interesting, engaged and taking care of yourself will.

    Again, I am single so maybe I shouldn't be giving advice but I am a good observer of life and people. And I read a lot. Too many people just let themselves go or get all wrapped up in their kids. You have to spend time on yourself and on your relationship.

    I 100% agree! I think this is great advice and even from someone single because that doesn't mean you've never had relationships or friends/family without them either! That's still a lot of life experience single or married!

    Absolutely! I agree completely with both of you.
  • tulips_and_tea
    tulips_and_tea Posts: 5,741 Member
    festerw wrote: »
    I hit my goal weight of 190 about 8lbs ago but altered it to 175 since I'm still a little flabby, the confession is I haven't told my wife since that's less than her current weight and she's losing too just not as fast.

    Congratulations! And very considerate of you to not tell her right now. Sometimes numbers like that can be more of a distraction than a help. Wishing her success as well!
  • m1xm0d3
    m1xm0d3 Posts: 1,576 Member
    KylerJaye wrote: »
    pofoster21 wrote: »
    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    brandi9172 wrote: »
    I confess that most of the threads in the Chit - Chat section drive me absolutely bonkers. "Would you kiss the person above" "Compliment the person above" Blah blah blah. I guess because it's blatant compliment fishing maybe...or perhaps because there are a ton of married/partnered people out there flirting and being inappropriate with other people. I don't know...but it grosses me out. So I try not to look at even the titles...and I never click in. Did it once...won't make that mistake again, lol. :dizzy:

    I hear ya! I'm single and I've honestly never been to that thread! Seriously search my name you won't find it! Not a fan, I'm here for my health not to find a date :)

    Well now you are not really single...

    But I am and I can't stand when people start all the overt flirting and innuendo. I leave those threads immediately. That is not why I am here. If I wanted that I would go to match.com.

    I tried match.com once and they literally refused my membership! I got a msg that said they didn't have anyone that would match my profile/questionnaire info, and to try again at a later date!

    It's hysterical and depressing all at once!

    This happened to me with eHarmony. Talk about a massive waste of my time. They make you answer like a bajillion questions and then say, "Nope."

    The rejection would make me laugh but the time wasted would put me in a rage. lol
  • KylerJaye
    KylerJaye Posts: 861 Member
    KylerJaye wrote: »
    pofoster21 wrote: »
    LBuehrle8 wrote: »
    brandi9172 wrote: »
    I confess that most of the threads in the Chit - Chat section drive me absolutely bonkers. "Would you kiss the person above" "Compliment the person above" Blah blah blah. I guess because it's blatant compliment fishing maybe...or perhaps because there are a ton of married/partnered people out there flirting and being inappropriate with other people. I don't know...but it grosses me out. So I try not to look at even the titles...and I never click in. Did it once...won't make that mistake again, lol. :dizzy:

    I hear ya! I'm single and I've honestly never been to that thread! Seriously search my name you won't find it! Not a fan, I'm here for my health not to find a date :)

    Well now you are not really single...

    But I am and I can't stand when people start all the overt flirting and innuendo. I leave those threads immediately. That is not why I am here. If I wanted that I would go to match.com.

    I tried match.com once and they literally refused my membership! I got a msg that said they didn't have anyone that would match my profile/questionnaire info, and to try again at a later date!

    It's hysterical and depressing all at once!

    This happened to me with eHarmony. Talk about a massive waste of my time. They make you answer like a bajillion questions and then say, "Nope."

    omg, i think it might have actually been eharmony and not match. yeah, there were a bajillion freakin questions! it was so many years ago, all i held on to was the rejection. lol
  • MoHousdon
    MoHousdon Posts: 8,723 Member
    MoHousdon wrote: »
    MoHousdon wrote: »
    MoHousdon wrote: »
    MoHousdon wrote: »
    lbking94 wrote: »
    I found this thread last night after looking for posts to make myself feel better for once again thinking I could eat out of the carton of ice cream without over doing. Like I hadn't learned that lesson already. The first two pages made me laugh til I cried, I so related to playing games with a food log that only I see. I didn't realize I wasn't alone. Thank you. I will be returning often.

    Welcome to our safe place!


    We have cookie butter, Oreos and Poptarts, and Funyuns.

    FTFY

    Blech. I hate Funyuns. And where's my turtle cake @quiksylver296 ?

    I told you! I ate it!

    When did you say that? I don't think we can be friends anymore if you're just going to eat cake and rub it in my face and not in a good way either.

    On my newsfeed, when you asked what turtle cake was. Not my fault, I didn't bake it. Someone brought it in and gave me a piece. You want me to share my ONE piece?!? (And I took a small piece, too, trying to maintain some sort of control.)

    No, I guess not. I will just be over here wishing I'd had some turtle cake too. I will just drink my protein shake and pretend it's cake.

    Didn't you post this once upon a time? :D

    k5g0aeia3kas.png

    I did. THIS. This is why we're friends. :smiley:

  • MissKalhan
    MissKalhan Posts: 2,282 Member
    edited May 2015
    I have been dealing with the leg cramps from hell the past 3 days, I've been training for a half marathon but I've been pacing myself. I can't figure out what the hell is causing them, I want them gone! Lol
    ETA: I fail at forming sentences today guys.
  • MoHousdon
    MoHousdon Posts: 8,723 Member
    edited May 2015
    kecmw25 wrote: »
    MoHousdon wrote: »
    Here are pictures of my fur babies. I am WAY behind on this, but I wanted to join in on the sharing party.

    This is Owen. I fear he's not to return. It's been over 3 weeks now and haven't seen him. That makes me sad because he was my baby boy.

    6enh80drb2ti.jpg

    This is Lucy and Otis. Lucy is the big (for her breed, she's actually on the small side) Staffy, and Otis is the little one in the background.

    qtlw994hg1gz.jpg

    Awww, they're all so cute but I love big dogs so can I have Lucy?

    ETA: I love their names and I'm really sorry about Owen

    You'd have to fight (physically more than likely) my husband for her. That's his baby and he was heartbroken when she ran away a few years ago. That's a long story and she didn't run away on purpose. Anyway, NO, you can't have Lucy. Although, you're more than welcome to come and visit her. :smile:

    Edited because sometimes reading and typing is hard.

  • Sch614
    Sch614 Posts: 73 Member
    Last night after finishing dinner, my daughter brought her plate to the sink and said "good effort mom" and she thought she was being encouraging!
  • tulips_and_tea
    tulips_and_tea Posts: 5,741 Member
    Is it bad that I feel the need to look better than my boyfriends ex?
    On top of that I just want to be confident in myself and feel comfortable in my own skin.

    No, it's not bad. We all have our shallow or vain motivations at times. But, the bold part of your post should be your #1 priority no matter what.
  • tulips_and_tea
    tulips_and_tea Posts: 5,741 Member
    I'm a vegetarian but I can't manage to lose weight. I stopped eating bread and I barely eat any protein

    I gave up bread and most carbs and feel great. BUT you HAVE to have protein! Greek yogurt, cottage cheese, beans, etc. If you want to see progress you'll need to make a few more changes.
  • kelly_c_77
    kelly_c_77 Posts: 5,658 Member
    MoHousdon wrote: »
    Here are pictures of my fur babies. I am WAY behind on this, but I wanted to join in on the sharing party.

    This is Owen. I fear he's not to return. It's been over 3 weeks now and haven't seen him. That makes me sad because he was my baby boy.

    6enh80drb2ti.jpg

    This is Lucy and Otis. Lucy is the big (for her breed, she's actually on the small side) Staffy, and Otis is the little one in the background.

    qtlw994hg1gz.jpg
    Super cute! And never lose hope with a lost pet...there are crazy stories of animals returning after YEARS of being lost! :)
  • MoHousdon
    MoHousdon Posts: 8,723 Member
    Sch614 wrote: »
    Last night after finishing dinner, my daughter brought her plate to the sink and said "good effort mom" and she thought she was being encouraging!

    I'm sorry, but this is funny. At least she appreciated the effort. That's something.

  • kelly_c_77
    kelly_c_77 Posts: 5,658 Member
    MissLaaber wrote: »
    I have been dealing with the leg cramps from hell the past 3 days, I've been training for a half marathon but I've been pacing myself. I can't figure out what the hell is causing them, I want them gone! Lol
    ETA: I fail at forming sentences today guys.
    Last year, I was having major leg cramping and restlessness and no matter what I did, nothing helped. I finally found something called Leg Cramps at CVS and they are a lifesaver! I would take 2 right before bed(that's when my legs would cramp) and I never had a problem again! Maybe you could try them?

  • tulips_and_tea
    tulips_and_tea Posts: 5,741 Member
    kelly_c_77 wrote: »
    peleroja wrote: »
    BZAH10 wrote: »
    m1xm0d3 wrote: »
    BZAH10 wrote: »
    m1xm0d3 wrote: »
    I used to break spaghetti into 3 when my kids were little. I still break it in half. I rarely order it in a restaurant because I don't like the looong strands.

    I also never order ribs. I hate getting my hands dirty, even if it's because of delicious ribs.

    I've never been a fan of spaghetti. I mean it's ok but def not something I would ever order when dining out. Maybe I haven't had GOOD spaghetti. But then again, I am not a saucy guy so I tend to like more noodle than sauce. And a noodle is just a noodle, correct?

    I crush ribs without second thought. I do however go through a TON of wet naps cuz I hate that sticky feeling on my hands and face.

    What??? Pretty sure your profile pic says otherwise! Haha. Those scrawny arms in the picture make me laugh every time.

    LMAO touché... I am also not a fan of mayo. Stupid skinny arm child proof tops (They ARE child proof, right?) :p

    Aren't all jars?? I used to have this small rubber gripper thing that I used constantly to open jars. It mysteriously disappeared from my kitchen. I didn't lose it. Husband is retired and spends way more time in the kitchen than I do, so naturally I blamed him. I throw a new temper tantrum now every time I cannot open a jar and my gripper is no where to be found. Never can remember to buy another one at the store! Simple solution, but temper tantrums are much more fun.

    Just tap/bang the edge of the jar (the metal part) all the way around on the countertop and the jar will open easily. It breaks the seal so it's suddenly really easy. It saved my life as a bartender constantly with the pickled asparagus/green beans and olive jars because I'm a shrimpy little girl with weak everything.

    You can also use the tip of a butter knife or spoon just under the lid..you'll actually hear the seal pop/air let out. Works great!

    What she said! My daddy made sure I didn't need no man. :)

    Agreed, however, *I* am the one that made sure I don't need a man to do things for me! Hence, the temper tantrums and resorting to other methods. I refuse to ask my husband to do it. I'll figure it out myself, thankyouverymuch!
  • LBuehrle8
    LBuehrle8 Posts: 4,044 Member
    Edison563 wrote: »
    Are eggs like supposed to be really good for you?

    Like, yes. ;)

    Just cracked up, out loud, at work...thanks!
  • xLoveLikeWinterx
    xLoveLikeWinterx Posts: 408 Member
    crosbylee wrote: »
    I have an nsv combined with a confession: yesterday I did finally go shopping for capris pants an spent the entire afternoon in the mall (I walked the length of it four times and got some decent exercise). I was pleasantry surprised that all the stores I went to had my size given that for past 4 years I was shopping in the plus size stores for pants (granted, I was not aware that a lot of stores actually carried up to a size 16-18 as the stores I shopped at in my early twenties when I was thinner never carried larger than a 12; I was to embarrassed with my self to even look - I guess tastes change a bit the older you get).

    Anywho, when I told the store staff in several of the stores I needed a size 14 they asked me to try on a size 12. I knew they wouldn't fit but I tried them on anyways (I was right btw). The NSV = people looking at me think I am smaller than I am. The confession: I popped a button on one of the size 12 as I was trying to do them up!. I tried tying the button back on the capris as they wanted $75 (which is WAY too much money IMHO) but said screw it and just left. I thought it was pretty funny but it made me feel good to know that I don't look as big to others as I feel sometimes.

    Sometimes though I wish I was more proportionate. I can now fit into medium sized shirts but I need such large bottoms in comparison. Dresses look so funny on me as they are either too big on top but fit in the middle or fit on top but too tight in the middle- stupid genetics.

    I have the opposite problem. My bottom half is shrinking, and I suffer from Noassatall, so jeans always seem to fall off me. However, the girls will probably keep me in a 2x shirt most of the time. I am hoping to get at least down to a large with weight loss. Here's hoping!!

    At my tiniest, I was a sz 0-2 and still wore a S or M shirt. Big chest, noassatall here too.
  • tulips_and_tea
    tulips_and_tea Posts: 5,741 Member
    Francl27 wrote: »
    Lois_1989 wrote: »
    This is more advice than a confession: Don't cry in your Goggles when you go swimming, tears sting a lot when they go back into your eyes.

    Why were you crying I hear you ask? I weighed myself this morning. I weigh exactly the same amount as I weighed back in February. I'm beginning to think this is all a big waste of my time. I work out 6 hours a week and eat a 890 calorie deficit a day. I don't know what else to do...

    You're eating more than you think and overestimating your exercise calories, probably. Maybe make a new thread and open your diary and people can help... Also, you don't have to eat breakfast if you're not hungry... It's a myth that it kick starts your metabolism.
    Fat_Lassie wrote: »
    I once stopped in the middle of P90X to eat a burrito.

    I like you.
    NoAnalHere wrote: »
    Can I still join in? Embarrassingly I don't know moderation so I brought a food scale. The amount of rice for dinner would be like 7 oz. Most of the time I scoop some rice off my plate to make it 4 oz. Occasionally I just keep it and log 600 calories of rice because I love rice D:

    You're not alone. Even after 2.5 years, my eyeballing skills still suck. Watch our for cooked rice though, I found that most entries really underestimate the calories in 100g of rice... I had to weigh it dry then cooked to see how many grams were a serving of cooked rice.
    So, I decided to make a pan of brownies from scratch and had the first three inches of the 13x9 pan with a half cup of frozen chocolate yogurt. I am completely sick to my stomach and wishing I hadn't made any at all. I can't BELIEVE I used to eat half a pan in one sitting! No wonder my largest was 270. Seriously, even just a month ago, I could have a whole large pizza, a bag of chips, a microwave brownie modified to be nearly 700 calories, and three regular cokes. About two months ago, I ate a whole cake in three days with whipped cream. At the beginning of this month, I had 13 donuts in three days. I really like three days in case you couldn't tell. Oh my gosh, lol.

    For me it totally depends on the time of the month honestly. The amount of food I can put away when I'm PMSing is unreal... could easily do 4000 calories if I didn't try to restraint myself. And some days I'll be full in 1200 calories. That's why I say that listening to your body is a recipe for disaster.

    I'm hoping today is one of those 'full easily' day as my dear son put his alarm clock at 4am (what was I thinking to give a clock to my 7yo kids?) and I haven't been able to go back to sleep since. So I was hungry at 6am and made some big fluffy buttermilk chocolate chip pancakes I had been craving for weeks. I did manage to stop at 2 though, which is improvement, but I'm still at 630 calories and it's not even 7am. Still totally worth it. I foresee a big grilled chicken salad for lunch... and a nap. I hope.

    And I'm about to get my second cup of coffee.

    Confession - sometimes when I read about friends dating I get jealous because I really miss all the butterflies when you start falling in love. Sometimes I can't help wondering if I'm normal because I feel that I'd be happier if I didn't do long term relationships...

    I'm with you. Sadly, I discovered this about myself a little too late.
  • LBuehrle8
    LBuehrle8 Posts: 4,044 Member
    MoHousdon wrote: »
    Here are pictures of my fur babies. I am WAY behind on this, but I wanted to join in on the sharing party.

    This is Owen. I fear he's not to return. It's been over 3 weeks now and haven't seen him. That makes me sad because he was my baby boy.

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    This is Lucy and Otis. Lucy is the big (for her breed, she's actually on the small side) Staffy, and Otis is the little one in the background.

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    Aww your cat is so cute I hope he comes back! But I'm a dog person for sure and I love your doggies!!
  • tulips_and_tea
    tulips_and_tea Posts: 5,741 Member
    Lois_1989 wrote: »
    This is more advice than a confession: Don't cry in your Goggles when you go swimming, tears sting a lot when they go back into your eyes.

    Why were you crying I hear you ask? I weighed myself this morning. I weigh exactly the same amount as I weighed back in February. I'm beginning to think this is all a big waste of my time. I work out 6 hours a week and eat a 890 calorie deficit a day. I don't know what else to do...

    I'm sorry this made you sad, but it's still a good thing! Without knowing the exacts about your calorie input and output, I'm going to suggest changing your focus. Don't focus on that number on the scale. You swim as your main exercise, correct? What is your current goal - time, laps? Whichever it is focus on improving that solely. Think like an athlete: they focus on the performance of their body and the shape will then follow.

    Food wise, have you ever tried eliminating certain types of foods? Every person is different and must find what works for them but sometimes just because something doesn't necessarily bother you, you feel better and have more energy if it is eliminated. Examples being gluten, carbs, dairy, etc.