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  • Italian_Buju
    Italian_Buju Posts: 8,030 Member
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    Morning all. Just checking in. Not be around much, as trying to deal with life changes and what-not. I'm currently living in a hotel during the week and have hired a new trainer to take me through some strength/lifting routines. Food has been somewhat erratic, with a couple of terrible binge days. Basically negating all the training.

    Partners (ex-partners?) and I are talking, trying to sort the mess to see if/how we can go forward together. Mr Smartie has seen his GP for medication and had an initial assessment with a therapist. We are waiting for a referral to a specialist military therapist. I feel that I am not quite done with them yet, so have committed to try and see if we can move on together.

    In other news: we're still waiting on social services to make decisions about my sister's baby, so I feel i can't make any plans past the end of September.

    I am planning a holiday with my parents and Charlie at the end of September, and i would dearly love to be down about 20lbs by then.

    Mum saw her consultant yesterday. He is pleased with the way the operation went, but now she begins treatment 3 times a week for 6 weeks.

    So all in all, its been a little bit of a stressful month.

    thank you to everyone who messaged me and left notes on my wall. I'm sorry I wasn't that able to engage, it was just taking a lot of energy to remain upright some days.

    I missed you! So glad to see you post an update! When life is stressful you have to do what you can to remain sane and healthy, don't worry about anything else....you are doing great compared to what a lot of people would do in your situation.

    I hope you have a great time on your holiday. Good luck with the ongoing communication with your partners!

    <3
  • Oberon21
    Oberon21 Posts: 13,235 Member
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    I just got back from a screening of The Man From U.N.C.L.E., and since I saw it for free the least I can do is spread the word around that it is a very, VERY good movie. I have never seen the TV show, but the movie was stylish and completely AWESOME! I would definitely see it again. From the start I was hooked, and I didn't know anything about it prior from seeing it. It comes out on August 14 if anyone is interested ;)

    Oh, I loved that show. I didn't know they were making a movie. I will definitely go see that! Thanks for the heads up!
  • kellyjellybellyjelly
    kellyjellybellyjelly Posts: 9,480 Member
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    ohgeeque wrote: »
    -I like my kids. I'm going to keep both of them. My husband, too. I like him. I think I'll keep him.
    -I have never had a Quest bar or a protein drink. I'll just have a Hershey bar and a glass of chocolate milk.
    -My dog's name is Woola. He is as dumb as mud and sheds like crazy but I'm keeping him too. He is an awesome foot warmer.
    -I weigh myself everyday but only log it when the number goes down.
    -I own my own business but still think my boss is a b*tch some days.
    -I'd fire my only employee but it would make dinner uncomfortable and upset our children.
    -I do Zombie Run, late at night, and sometimes have to look over my shoulder to make sure I'm not being chased.
    -The first time I found bats in an attic I was inspecting I screamed like a 3 year old girl, the second time I threw up my hands and yelled "I'M BATMAN!"
    -I can type with 7 fingers.
    -I got my first injury at work to day. A leaded window slammed closed on my hand. It broke 2 fingers. It hurt plenty until the meds kicked in.

    So, how is everyone?

    Your post was hilarious until I read about your fingers:(. Ouch!
  • MelissaPhippsFeagins
    MelissaPhippsFeagins Posts: 8,063 Member
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    I carry around some cash because I need to keep myself more accountable for spending on things I don't need.

    It's where I lack will power. :p

    +1
  • kellyjellybellyjelly
    kellyjellybellyjelly Posts: 9,480 Member
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    pofoster21 wrote: »
    Morning all. Just checking in. Not be around much, as trying to deal with life changes and what-not. I'm currently living in a hotel during the week and have hired a new trainer to take me through some strength/lifting routines. Food has been somewhat erratic, with a couple of terrible binge days. Basically negating all the training.

    Partners (ex-partners?) and I are talking, trying to sort the mess to see if/how we can go forward together. Mr Smartie has seen his GP for medication and had an initial assessment with a therapist. We are waiting for a referral to a specialist military therapist. I feel that I am not quite done with them yet, so have committed to try and see if we can move on together.

    In other news: we're still waiting on social services to make decisions about my sister's baby, so I feel i can't make any plans past the end of September.

    I am planning a holiday with my parents and Charlie at the end of September, and i would dearly love to be down about 20lbs by then.

    Mum saw her consultant yesterday. He is pleased with the way the operation went, but now she begins treatment 3 times a week for 6 weeks.

    So all in all, its been a little bit of a stressful month.

    thank you to everyone who messaged me and left notes on my wall. I'm sorry I wasn't that able to engage, it was just taking a lot of energy to remain upright some days.

    Don't worry about us! Take care of yourself. We miss you but you need to take care of yourself and taking care of yourself will certainly help that. Congrats on the trainer and *hugs*.

    ^^^See this bolded stuff? All of this right here ^^^

    Ditto!

    @orangesmartie

    Good luck with your sister & the baby & your mom.

    Where are you going on holiday?
  • spamarie
    spamarie Posts: 2,825 Member
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    humpbax wrote: »
    Man, This thread has made me feel so normal today as I am slowing emptying a packet of wine gums... hahahahahhahahahahahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhahah

    At least you're doing it slowly!
  • misskarne
    misskarne Posts: 1,765 Member
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    Morning all. Just checking in. Not be around much, as trying to deal with life changes and what-not. I'm currently living in a hotel during the week and have hired a new trainer to take me through some strength/lifting routines. Food has been somewhat erratic, with a couple of terrible binge days. Basically negating all the training.

    Partners (ex-partners?) and I are talking, trying to sort the mess to see if/how we can go forward together. Mr Smartie has seen his GP for medication and had an initial assessment with a therapist. We are waiting for a referral to a specialist military therapist. I feel that I am not quite done with them yet, so have committed to try and see if we can move on together.

    In other news: we're still waiting on social services to make decisions about my sister's baby, so I feel i can't make any plans past the end of September.

    I am planning a holiday with my parents and Charlie at the end of September, and i would dearly love to be down about 20lbs by then.

    Mum saw her consultant yesterday. He is pleased with the way the operation went, but now she begins treatment 3 times a week for 6 weeks.

    So all in all, its been a little bit of a stressful month.

    thank you to everyone who messaged me and left notes on my wall. I'm sorry I wasn't that able to engage, it was just taking a lot of energy to remain upright some days.

    Lots of hugs for you orangesmartie!
  • misskarne
    misskarne Posts: 1,765 Member
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    pofoster21 wrote: »
    misskarne wrote: »
    So a few months ago, I posted that I couldn't even finish level 1 of Jillian Michaels' Beginner Shred. I was so embarrassed and ashamed, I put the DVD away for all that time. Every week I swore I would try again, but then that little voice in my head said: "what if you can't finish it again?".

    My NSV for today is that I told the little voice in my head to get lost, and I put the DVD on, and I did the whole darn level 1 workout! *feels like a boss*

    My muscles feel a little wobbly, but I feel so good. I finished it! And if I did it once, I can do it again. And again!

    I remember that and...this is a great reminder to all of us that just because today we 'can't' tomorrow we can if we keep plugging away at it. This isn't a sprint, its a marathon (weight loss, fitness, better/healther eating). And we are all in it to win it!

    Yes! :) And mental as much as anything. I don't think I am really any fitter than that day, and I am not substantially lighter (only a few kilos), but this time, I was determined, super-determined, to do it. I'm glad I live alone - no-one should have to see my crazy eyes as I pushed through it!

    And I know some people say Jillian drives them nuts on her DVDs, but I actually really liked it, when she would constantly tell me, "Remember why you're here today."
  • MelissaPhippsFeagins
    MelissaPhippsFeagins Posts: 8,063 Member
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    nonoelmo wrote: »
    MissKalhan wrote: »
    ShibaEars wrote: »
    Okay, as another word comparison, how do you say batteries?

    Bat-trees or (the correct way lol) batter-ees ?

    Batter-ees! Pet peeve here, people who can't say espresso correctly...

    For me it is nuclear. People who can't pronounce it correctly.

    When I was a kid I said new-clear for a whole school year. My teacher never corrected me because she thought it was cute. (I have a family member with a degree in nuclear engineering. He finally told me what i was doing.)
  • Oberon21
    Oberon21 Posts: 13,235 Member
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    Hi, all,

    Just giving a quick update, as I may be in and out over the next few days. I am at my Mom's for vacation with my sister and her 2 kids who are 14 (girl) and 10 (boy). We are going to NY today and visiting the new world trade center and then maybe the village and maybe the Empire State Bldg. Then Times Square tonight and dinner. Then I booked a hotel off of central park and in the AM we'll go for a long walk in central park (I am going to run there in the AM before they get up), lunch in central park and then I got us all tickets to the Lion King. I have never seen it and am SO excited.

    I live 45 minutes from NY, used to work there daily, still go in a lot, and still get like a kid when I can go in and play tourist. I LOVE NYC!

    Will take plenty of pics to share with you all when I can get them uploaded.

    Take care... sorry have to say this... no politics and remember no swearing! (Excusing yourself or apologizing to the people who don't like it before you swear still counts as swearing...). I think we have all gotten back to a good place the last few days, let's stay there so we don't lose any of our dear friends. Thanks!
  • Oberon21
    Oberon21 Posts: 13,235 Member
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    Tubbs216 wrote: »
    I'm here! Are you missing me?! I'm in Mexico and I'm definitely gaining weight. Damn you, all inclusive buffet and bar! Last time I was away I gained a pound for every day, but only one was 'real' weight, so I'm hoping this time is similar.
    Best wishes to all! I'll catch up when I'm home on Friday. xxx

    Hope you had a great time! I am trying not to gain too much weight on my vacation!
  • nonoelmo
    nonoelmo Posts: 3,941 Member
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    nonoelmo wrote: »

    ETA This is advice I am going to work very hard to follow in my life in the coming months to year. I just found out about son possibly needing another heart surgery. I will be interested to see SO's reaction. His son also has special needs but has not needed surgeries. It is going to be challenging for me to watch my son go into the congestive heart failure again (unless medicine has changed since the last time and that is possible too) before they take the risk of surgery. I need to figure out what I need/expect from SO and I need to see what he does without being pushed into anything. This will certainly be a place when I can see how compatible we are long term. Would I cut him free if he does not handle it well? Yes. I know that people are who they are and real change is rare. So far it has been good. We'll see where this new development leads. I will not settle for less than a great match. :smile:

    ETA #2 Just spoke to him. His initial reaction was loving and compassionate and just right. <3

    I am so sorry your son is having such a hard time. May I ask how old he is?
    Glad your SO is supportive, that you will have someone to lean on during this time.

    He is 15 now. Thank you.
  • Oberon21
    Oberon21 Posts: 13,235 Member
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    ShibaEars wrote: »
    pofoster21 wrote: »
    ShibaEars wrote: »
    I challenged my dad to a weekend fitbit challenge, specifically because I knew I was doing a 5k this morning. Getting him back for when he didn't tell me he was playing soccer lol

    How did the 5K go?

    @pofoster21 @ShibaEars

    How did your races go? Hope you had fun & good weather.

    Mine went well! It was perfect weather, just a few clouds & it was cooler to start off with, which is nice. The route took us through a really nice park, with lots of trees and a couple ponds. I finished in about 33 minutes.

    Great to hear it was perfect weather & awesome finishing time!

    I haven't gotten back to this original post but congratulations! Sounds gorgeous and great time!!!!!
  • Oberon21
    Oberon21 Posts: 13,235 Member
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    I can't keep any dessert type snacks in my house like cookies or cake or chocolate because I am incapable of eating them in moderation.

    You're not alone. I am banning ice cream, cookies, & other desserts for a long time until I can eat them in moderation.

    I have no food in my house. No wine, no snacks, no goodies. I can't eat anything in moderation when its in my house.
  • kelly_c_77
    kelly_c_77 Posts: 5,658 Member
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    pofoster21 wrote: »
    Morning all. Just checking in. Not be around much, as trying to deal with life changes and what-not. I'm currently living in a hotel during the week and have hired a new trainer to take me through some strength/lifting routines. Food has been somewhat erratic, with a couple of terrible binge days. Basically negating all the training.

    Partners (ex-partners?) and I are talking, trying to sort the mess to see if/how we can go forward together. Mr Smartie has seen his GP for medication and had an initial assessment with a therapist. We are waiting for a referral to a specialist military therapist. I feel that I am not quite done with them yet, so have committed to try and see if we can move on together.

    In other news: we're still waiting on social services to make decisions about my sister's baby, so I feel i can't make any plans past the end of September.

    I am planning a holiday with my parents and Charlie at the end of September, and i would dearly love to be down about 20lbs by then.

    Mum saw her consultant yesterday. He is pleased with the way the operation went, but now she begins treatment 3 times a week for 6 weeks.

    So all in all, its been a little bit of a stressful month.

    thank you to everyone who messaged me and left notes on my wall. I'm sorry I wasn't that able to engage, it was just taking a lot of energy to remain upright some days.

    Don't worry about us! Take care of yourself. We miss you but you need to take care of yourself and taking care of yourself will certainly help that. Congrats on the trainer and *hugs*.

    +1,000,000,000!!!!!
  • nonoelmo
    nonoelmo Posts: 3,941 Member
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    misskarne wrote: »
    pofoster21 wrote: »
    misskarne wrote: »
    So a few months ago, I posted that I couldn't even finish level 1 of Jillian Michaels' Beginner Shred. I was so embarrassed and ashamed, I put the DVD away for all that time. Every week I swore I would try again, but then that little voice in my head said: "what if you can't finish it again?".

    My NSV for today is that I told the little voice in my head to get lost, and I put the DVD on, and I did the whole darn level 1 workout! *feels like a boss*

    My muscles feel a little wobbly, but I feel so good. I finished it! And if I did it once, I can do it again. And again!

    I remember that and...this is a great reminder to all of us that just because today we 'can't' tomorrow we can if we keep plugging away at it. This isn't a sprint, its a marathon (weight loss, fitness, better/healther eating). And we are all in it to win it!

    Yes! :) And mental as much as anything. I don't think I am really any fitter than that day, and I am not substantially lighter (only a few kilos), but this time, I was determined, super-determined, to do it. I'm glad I live alone - no-one should have to see my crazy eyes as I pushed through it!

    And I know some people say Jillian drives them nuts on her DVDs, but I actually really liked it, when she would constantly tell me, "Remember why you're here today."

    Congrats
  • MelissaPhippsFeagins
    MelissaPhippsFeagins Posts: 8,063 Member
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    Confession: I am REALLY hoping there is a slice of cake waiting for my when I get home and a glass of wine to go with it.

    A straight 12 hour shift, 12 days into a 14 day streak of straight 8's....I can do this....

    I feel so exhausted. My friend Alycia and I are SO having a girls day on my only day off. Thursday can not come quickly enough.

    I hope so too. You deserve it!

    I like my 7-3:30 M-F life. There is overtime occasionally, but not often. My husband takes the kiddos to school on his way to work and I pick them up on my way home.
  • MelissaPhippsFeagins
    MelissaPhippsFeagins Posts: 8,063 Member
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    ohgeeque wrote: »
    -I like my kids. I'm going to keep both of them. My husband, too. I like him. I think I'll keep him.
    -I have never had a Quest bar or a protein drink. I'll just have a Hershey bar and a glass of chocolate milk.
    -My dog's name is Woola. He is as dumb as mud and sheds like crazy but I'm keeping him too. He is an awesome foot warmer.
    -I weigh myself everyday but only log it when the number goes down.
    -I own my own business but still think my boss is a b*tch some days.
    -I'd fire my only employee but it would make dinner uncomfortable and upset our children.
    -I do Zombie Run, late at night, and sometimes have to look over my shoulder to make sure I'm not being chased.
    -The first time I found bats in an attic I was inspecting I screamed like a 3 year old girl, the second time I threw up my hands and yelled "I'M BATMAN!"
    -I can type with 7 fingers.
    -I got my first injury at work to day. A leaded window slammed closed on my hand. It broke 2 fingers. It hurt plenty until the meds kicked in.

    So, how is everyone?

    Sorry about the broken fingers. Do take care.

    Laughing about I am batman...because shouldn't you be batgirl? LOL
  • MelissaPhippsFeagins
    MelissaPhippsFeagins Posts: 8,063 Member
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    Morning all. Just checking in. Not be around much, as trying to deal with life changes and what-not. I'm currently living in a hotel during the week and have hired a new trainer to take me through some strength/lifting routines. Food has been somewhat erratic, with a couple of terrible binge days. Basically negating all the training.

    Partners (ex-partners?) and I are talking, trying to sort the mess to see if/how we can go forward together. Mr Smartie has seen his GP for medication and had an initial assessment with a therapist. We are waiting for a referral to a specialist military therapist. I feel that I am not quite done with them yet, so have committed to try and see if we can move on together.

    In other news: we're still waiting on social services to make decisions about my sister's baby, so I feel i can't make any plans past the end of September.

    I am planning a holiday with my parents and Charlie at the end of September, and i would dearly love to be down about 20lbs by then.

    Mum saw her consultant yesterday. He is pleased with the way the operation went, but now she begins treatment 3 times a week for 6 weeks.

    So all in all, its been a little bit of a stressful month.

    thank you to everyone who messaged me and left notes on my wall. I'm sorry I wasn't that able to engage, it was just taking a lot of energy to remain upright some days.

    I missed you! So glad to see you post an update! When life is stressful you have to do what you can to remain sane and healthy, don't worry about anything else....you are doing great compared to what a lot of people would do in your situation.

    I hope you have a great time on your holiday. Good luck with the ongoing communication with your partners!

    <3

    All of this and hugs from TN.
  • Italian_Buju
    Italian_Buju Posts: 8,030 Member
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    pofoster21 wrote: »
    Hi, all,

    Just giving a quick update, as I may be in and out over the next few days. I am at my Mom's for vacation with my sister and her 2 kids who are 14 (girl) and 10 (boy). We are going to NY today and visiting the new world trade center and then maybe the village and maybe the Empire State Bldg. Then Times Square tonight and dinner. Then I booked a hotel off of central park and in the AM we'll go for a long walk in central park (I am going to run there in the AM before they get up), lunch in central park and then I got us all tickets to the Lion King. I have never seen it and am SO excited.

    I live 45 minutes from NY, used to work there daily, still go in a lot, and still get like a kid when I can go in and play tourist. I LOVE NYC!

    Will take plenty of pics to share with you all when I can get them uploaded.

    Take care... sorry have to say this... no politics and remember no swearing! (Excusing yourself or apologizing to the people who don't like it before you swear still counts as swearing...). I think we have all gotten back to a good place the last few days, let's stay there so we don't lose any of our dear friends. Thanks!

    Hey, have a great time! How exciting! Enjoy spending time with your family, I look forward to seeing your photos when you get back home!