Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))
Options
Replies
-
girldownsouth wrote: »I'm still working on getting caught up.
I went on a walk at lunch yesterday with a co-worker so that was good. I'm thinking about walking again today.
I have today and then half a day tomorrow for work so I'm in vacation mode already. This weekend I have my Red Rocks concerts so I'm really excited (Pretty Lights Friday and Saturday). Hopefully no one laughs at me since I'm older but I bought jewels for my face so I'm going to put those on and I have Glowbys for my hair (fiber optic glow barrettes for hair). I'm just going to have fun. I'll try to post a pic in the batcave from my phone later of my trial run of the jewels to see what you guys think.
Friday morning we are going to Original Pancake house. Strawberry waffles and home fries here I come. Yay.
Cool! I used to be a raver and did all the decked out gear at one time. I've been an EDM DJ for over 5 years. I remember when Pretty Lights was just an up-and-coming midliner. Now he headlines all of his shows. Do you by chance like Bassnectar? He is always doing shows at RR.
Yes, I actually like Bassnectar as well but I've never been to their concert yet (I'm determined though!-I need to just go, I need more money haha). This will be my 3rd year going to the Pretty Lights Red Rocks concerts so I'm really excited. I look forward to it every year. Tickets sell out so fast though.
That is awesome that you are an EDM DJ. We would get along pretty well. That's my favorite type of music. I'm kind of jealous, I always thought being a DJ would be pretty fun!
This is all very interesting... Froggy, I think that you should skip the counseling and find a new romance. A single guy, with similar interests, who doesn't snore...
I was thinking THE SAME THING @girldownsouth!!!
Well the good thing is my boyfriend and I have been getting along A LOT better (had a fun time at the concert and this weekend in general-I'll post more later when I'm caught up).
We do have our therapy appointment this Thursday. I have made it clear that if nothing changes I will leave though.
Good for you for making yourself a priority, and not a doormat. I'm not saying you WERE a doormat, but you know what I mean. Or at least, I hope you do.
I got it.
This post made me laugh though.0 -
Italian_Buju wrote: »So I have now tried all the Quest bars I wanted to try.
Cookie dough, chocolate peanut butter and cookies and creme are my faves. White chocolate raspberry was good too. Not a single one was gross and I never felt like I had to choke one down. This is a new staple for me.
I'm so happy you liked all of them. I love the cookie ones too.
Try the cookies and cream one out of the freezer. Game changer. I will not eat them any other way from now on.
Uh oh. I've never heard or thought of that. Now I really want to buy one to try it.
0 -
*post boyfriend update*
so that's the end of that.
after a solid month of seeing each other almost every. single. day. and him making the point to "be exclusive," dude decided that "i don't think that this is working for me."
i got about three hours of sleep last night, they weren't concurrent either. so apologies for the rambles.
first he said it was because *i* wanted too much commitment, to which i kindly reminded him that *he* was the one that wanted to be exclusive, then he just said that he wasn't sure if i was the *one* for him.
i do know that a lil more than a week ago, his ex-wife from six years ago reached out to him to try and rekindle things. he initially said he wasn't interested, maybe that changed?
or he simply just panicked and fled.
same end result.
i'd be lying if i said i wasn't devastated. and this is probably stupid of me too, but i really, honestly, thought he was the one for me. finally after all the horrors, and downright brutal treatment i endured both physically and emotionally...i thought it was actually my turn to be happy.
i'd also be lying if i said i wasn't furious with myself for allowing myself to get so involved and excited and be so foolish.
i should know better.
i do know better.
i think i'm just going to take a break from everything for a while.
my brain keeps flashing this lil image of a tiny hand setting a brick on a wall that's slowly being finished.
@KylerJaye, I'm SO sorry to hear this. I don't think you have anything to be embarrassed or ashamed of, you followed your heart and even though it didn't work out this time, doesn't mean it wont'. Take some time to grieve if that's what you need. Just remember, we're all here for you when you're ready to come back.
Also...
You're good enough
You're smart enough
And doggone it, people like you!
^^THIS. Sorry it happened. It's ok to be hurt, just know that we are here if you need anyting. Keep your head up. He is the one losing out.0 -
kellyjellybellyjelly wrote: »
No, me neitherNot to make everyone sad, but I read this secret ages ago on Postsecret, and it really stayed with me. Although it would be hard to stay with a pet until the end, after reading this, I could never leave.
I've always stayed. I'm Mama, and I am with them to the end, cuddling them until the vet officially pronounces them "gone".
I also have this weird notion that I have to pretend to be upbeat and cheerful because the dogs have always picked up on my emotions and I don't want them to feel my sadness. Although I guess I've never fooled them.Will anyone have any sympathy for me if I say that for the first time in my life I'm having trouble keeping weight on?
Since I've bumped up my exercise with the stairs etc and weights, I've been losing weight again, (slowly but still), although I feel like I'm eating so much more. I'm tracking and even going over what should be maintenance but it's still continuing to drop bit by bit. Eating is a chore at this point, which I never thought in a million years would even be possible.
I'm worried that it's rendering the exercise pointless if I'm not building muscle. I don't want to be putting in all this working-out, stair-climbing and strength-training effort for nothing so I'm kind of frustrated. And quite frankly, I don't really want to be any thinner at this point. My clothes are getting too big, there's an inch of empty space in my bra cups, and my rings are super loose.
I have never in my life felt bad for people who claim they can't gain weight (because how hard is it to just eat some more?!) but it turns out that the answer seems to be that it's a lot harder than I thought.
Loads of sympathy here, I'm having much the same issues.
Whereas I liked the idea of losing some BF and getting definition, I didn't want to lose flesh off my chest and face, which is where the loss is the most noticeable.
Last summer I dropped 5 lbs (that I didn't need to lose) because of taking hardcore antibiotics... I digested nothing for two weeks. Right after that I was on vacation and my physical activity increased significantly, plus my eating got a bit erratic just because of weird scheduling, and I only managed to gain 2 lbs back. Dedicated myself to lifting and eating higher protein in January, but it has still taken me a year to return to my normal weight.
I was hoping that building muscle would ADD some weight, not just shrink my boobs.
DON'T SAY THAT!!!
LOL, that's about the only good thing about dropping my body fat so low. Losing them makes me positively gleeful, apart from all the extra cup space.
But you have them to lose, I, however, do not.
I'm starting to see how some women reward themselves for getting to their goal weight, by getting a 'little extra' added!
I didn't know this was a thing. I've thought MANY times about having "some work" done, but I honestly don't think I ever would. I just need to learn to be satisfied with what God gave me and accentuate the positives.
I'm not saying there's anything wrong with it, it's just not for me, I don't think. I might change my mind when I hit 40. Who knows?!
I used to think that too, but now I'm pretty sure that, especially if we do decide to have kids, I'm going to get mine hoiked up as far as possible afterward. They're staying put so far but I'm terrified of them ending up around my navel one day
If I'd had to lose a lot of weight and they'd gotten shrunken or saggy I would have fixed them without question.
I am actually tempted to do this. I've never been blessed in that area since I was a big kid too. I want to have them fixed up. I'm torn between being okay with what I have (which isn't great) and getting what I want.
If I could have anything fixed it would be my arms/bat wings & my legs! Since losing around 140 pounds my legs are still awful & it still looks like I have no kneecaps.
I'm pretty sure I'll have the same problem. I always say I have cottage cheese legs.
I'm getting mine fixed. I'll need chest reduction, arms, and tummy tuck. Probably more but that's enough surgeries for me. We are not rich, and I am terrified of something going wrong, but...losing 170 lbs wrecks your body. I actually can't even work out the way I want without rubbing the skin, getting rashes, etc.
I could go on and on for the reasons why it's necessary for my well-being, but it is. I have to do it in stages, so I'm looking at Stage 1 being in Nov and Stage 2 being in May.
I have 3 consults scheduled for this Wed and I'm nervous/excited.0 -
*post boyfriend update*
so that's the end of that.
after a solid month of seeing each other almost every. single. day. and him making the point to "be exclusive," dude decided that "i don't think that this is working for me."
i got about three hours of sleep last night, they weren't concurrent either. so apologies for the rambles.
first he said it was because *i* wanted too much commitment, to which i kindly reminded him that *he* was the one that wanted to be exclusive, then he just said that he wasn't sure if i was the *one* for him.
i do know that a lil more than a week ago, his ex-wife from six years ago reached out to him to try and rekindle things. he initially said he wasn't interested, maybe that changed?
or he simply just panicked and fled.
same end result.
i'd be lying if i said i wasn't devastated. and this is probably stupid of me too, but i really, honestly, thought he was the one for me. finally after all the horrors, and downright brutal treatment i endured both physically and emotionally...i thought it was actually my turn to be happy.
i'd also be lying if i said i wasn't furious with myself for allowing myself to get so involved and excited and be so foolish.
i should know better.
i do know better.
i think i'm just going to take a break from everything for a while.
my brain keeps flashing this lil image of a tiny hand setting a brick on a wall that's slowly being finished.
*ETA* can i also add how ridiculously embarrassed i am about all of this?
NOOOOOOOOOOOOO I'm so sorry. *hugs* 0 -
kelly_c_77 wrote: »Out of embarrassment, I refuse to say how many slices I ate...but I also had greek salad and pasta salad!!!
Sounds like it was good! Did you see my old confession? Once I ate 17 slices of pizza...
It was a bet and I lost by like half a slice haha.0 -
*post boyfriend update*
so that's the end of that.
after a solid month of seeing each other almost every. single. day. and him making the point to "be exclusive," dude decided that "i don't think that this is working for me."
i got about three hours of sleep last night, they weren't concurrent either. so apologies for the rambles.
first he said it was because *i* wanted too much commitment, to which i kindly reminded him that *he* was the one that wanted to be exclusive, then he just said that he wasn't sure if i was the *one* for him.
i do know that a lil more than a week ago, his ex-wife from six years ago reached out to him to try and rekindle things. he initially said he wasn't interested, maybe that changed?
or he simply just panicked and fled.
same end result.
i'd be lying if i said i wasn't devastated. and this is probably stupid of me too, but i really, honestly, thought he was the one for me. finally after all the horrors, and downright brutal treatment i endured both physically and emotionally...i thought it was actually my turn to be happy.
i'd also be lying if i said i wasn't furious with myself for allowing myself to get so involved and excited and be so foolish.
i should know better.
i do know better.
i think i'm just going to take a break from everything for a while.
my brain keeps flashing this lil image of a tiny hand setting a brick on a wall that's slowly being finished.
*ETA* can i also add how ridiculously embarrassed i am about all of this?
So sorry about this, I know you were excited about this relationship. Just know that when the real Mr. Right comes along it will be so much better than this was.0 -
Susieq_1994 wrote: »Confession: I'm all excited because I went for a walk with my husband (I've been doing daily walks to help with the sciatica pain, on the doctor's recommendation), and downloaded a free pedometer app before we left--I got 1600 steps on that one little walk! Also, he bought an ice cream bar at the store we ended up in, and I didn't get one because I already commited in the Fitbit thread to sticking to my calories. It's a small win, but I'll take it.
Do you guys think the scale will be nice to me tomorrow if I regale it with tales of my fabulous will power?
It certainly won't hurt to try! LOL0 -
Susieq_1994 wrote: »kelly_c_77 wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »kelly_c_77 wrote: »kellyjellybellyjelly wrote: »kelly_c_77 wrote: »Not to make everyone sad, but I read this secret ages ago on Postsecret, and it really stayed with me. Although it would be hard to stay with a pet until the end, after reading this, I could never leave.
I've always stayed. I'm Mama, and I am with them to the end, cuddling them until the vet officially pronounces them "gone".
I also have this weird notion that I have to pretend to be upbeat and cheerful because the dogs have always picked up on my emotions and I don't want them to feel my sadness. Although I guess I've never fooled them.Will anyone have any sympathy for me if I say that for the first time in my life I'm having trouble keeping weight on?
Since I've bumped up my exercise with the stairs etc and weights, I've been losing weight again, (slowly but still), although I feel like I'm eating so much more. I'm tracking and even going over what should be maintenance but it's still continuing to drop bit by bit. Eating is a chore at this point, which I never thought in a million years would even be possible.
I'm worried that it's rendering the exercise pointless if I'm not building muscle. I don't want to be putting in all this working-out, stair-climbing and strength-training effort for nothing so I'm kind of frustrated. And quite frankly, I don't really want to be any thinner at this point. My clothes are getting too big, there's an inch of empty space in my bra cups, and my rings are super loose.
I have never in my life felt bad for people who claim they can't gain weight (because how hard is it to just eat some more?!) but it turns out that the answer seems to be that it's a lot harder than I thought.
Loads of sympathy here, I'm having much the same issues.
Whereas I liked the idea of losing some BF and getting definition, I didn't want to lose flesh off my chest and face, which is where the loss is the most noticeable.
Last summer I dropped 5 lbs (that I didn't need to lose) because of taking hardcore antibiotics... I digested nothing for two weeks. Right after that I was on vacation and my physical activity increased significantly, plus my eating got a bit erratic just because of weird scheduling, and I only managed to gain 2 lbs back. Dedicated myself to lifting and eating higher protein in January, but it has still taken me a year to return to my normal weight.
I was hoping that building muscle would ADD some weight, not just shrink my boobs.
DON'T SAY THAT!!!
LOL, that's about the only good thing about dropping my body fat so low. Losing them makes me positively gleeful, apart from all the extra cup space.
But you have them to lose, I, however, do not.
Nor do I. Just for the record.
I know, we've had this conversation before. I believe that's when I posted my booty pic.
I have reached a new snacking low: eating leftover Cool Whip out of the tub (why dirty a dish?) with sprinkles. Yep, I can't be bothered serving it into a dish to eat properly, but I will make the effort to garnish it with sprinkles.
I've done this...but mixed a bit of peanut butter in there too. Nom nom nom.
I've tried that Funfetti Cake dip with Cool Whip & it's pretty good.
I ate Coconut Pecan frosting on graham crackers last night and it was amazing. I might like the frosting more than cookie butter...and I didn't think that was possible.
Is this the frosting they use for German chocolate cake?! I never thought of putting it on graham crackers. I just eat it out of the can when I have it in the house. Which, I'm sad to say is pretty much never, because both Mr. Mo and Rachael HATE coconut, and Rachael doesn't like pecans. I can't believe I'm related to these people.
I hate both as well. I shudder when I see that frosting on the shelves... It sounds like bottled nastiness to me!
Trust me, it IS NOT!!! Very sweet though! Even I was a little like, woah!!
And also- I will join @riderfangal in her Questlessness!!
Yay for Questless people!
I've never had one and have no immediate plans to try them.
I like the way they taste but they NEVER sit well with me and I always forget it until I try to eat them again I hadn't had any in like 6 months and then had 2-3 bars last week. Holy bloated, uncomfortable feeling, bathroom issues! And that was WITH eating them like 1/2 or 1/3 of a bar a day, so I spread it out. I remember now why I gave them up 0 -
Italian_Buju wrote: »So I have now tried all the Quest bars I wanted to try.
Cookie dough, chocolate peanut butter and cookies and creme are my faves. White chocolate raspberry was good too. Not a single one was gross and I never felt like I had to choke one down. This is a new staple for me.
I'm so happy you liked all of them. I love the cookie ones too.
Try the cookies and cream one out of the freezer. Game changer. I will not eat them any other way from now on.
Uh oh. I've never heard or thought of that. Now I really want to buy one to try it.
I had never heard of it either, and it happened more by accident than anything. I left my QB in my lunch bag in the fridge at work all day, but I usually eat one on the way home after working out, so I ate it anyway. It was a really hot day and that cold dense bar was just what I needed. I will not eat the cookies and cream ones any other way from now on. Unless, of course I forget to stick it in the fridge.
If you DO try it, please let me know if you like it.
1 -
@KylerJaye, I'm not going to give you any of those "he just wasn't the one" platitudes, but I'm sincerely sorry that things didn't work out and I'll be thinking about you. I'm not great with advice or reassurance but I feel terrible for you that things didn't end well.
x2 Truly sorry it didn't work out.0 -
*post boyfriend update*
I honestly teared up reading this. I'm so sorry that you are going through this. You deserve the best and I can't believe that it went down the way it did. My heart breaks for you. You have nothing to be embarrassed about or anything and I really hope you aren't putting up a wall around your heart. I know it hurts to love but I think that being able to love the way you do/did means you have a beautiful soul and there has to be someone out there who will appreciate that. HUGE HUGS!!! 0 -
Susieq_1994 wrote: »Confession: I'm all excited because I went for a walk with my husband (I've been doing daily walks to help with the sciatica pain, on the doctor's recommendation), and downloaded a free pedometer app before we left--I got 1600 steps on that one little walk! Also, he bought an ice cream bar at the store we ended up in, and I didn't get one because I already commited in the Fitbit thread to sticking to my calories. It's a small win, but I'll take it.
Do you guys think the scale will be nice to me tomorrow if I regale it with tales of my fabulous will power?
Good job on the walk and resisting ice cream! I know you'll get the fitbit!0 -
Italian_Buju wrote: »So I have now tried all the Quest bars I wanted to try.
Cookie dough, chocolate peanut butter and cookies and creme are my faves. White chocolate raspberry was good too. Not a single one was gross and I never felt like I had to choke one down. This is a new staple for me.
I'm so happy you liked all of them. I love the cookie ones too.
Try the cookies and cream one out of the freezer. Game changer. I will not eat them any other way from now on.
Uh oh. I've never heard or thought of that. Now I really want to buy one to try it.
I had never heard of it either, and it happened more by accident than anything. I left my QB in my lunch bag in the fridge at work all day, but I usually eat one on the way home after working out, so I ate it anyway. It was a really hot day and that cold dense bar was just what I needed. I will not eat the cookies and cream ones any other way from now on. Unless, of course I forget to stick it in the fridge.
If you DO try it, please let me know if you like it.
Oh, I WILL be trying it. Just gotta get the bar now. 0 -
donthegeek wrote: »donthegeek wrote: »Ok, confession time. My wife and I went out geocaching in the desert yesterday to get some steps and I got the truck stuck in an arroyo (back east it would be called a wash). Instead of getting in a workout, I banged my knee, and had to swallow my pride and ask my son to drive out and get me out of the sugar sand. I think I'm more embarrassed about getting stuck than the rest of the day but we went to Chili's for lunch (Ribs, Fries, Beer) and Freddy's for dinner (Patty Melt, Fries, and Frozen custard). Not only did we get stuck, but I ate things I shouldn't have eaten.
Lesson learned -> Getting stuck in the desert leads to overeating!
I'm unclear as to why these are things you shouldn't have eaten???
Individually, each meal would have been ok. What has bummed me out is the fact that it was so easy to go back to my old habits with just a little push from stress.
Now that I've got it out there, I can look at it and say - Don, pay attention and focus on the prize.
That's the spirit. Face it and move on.
0 -
AngryViking1970 wrote: »I don't know what happened here, but all of a sudden I can access the boards again from work. I guess someone in IT figured out that MFP doesn't fall into the blocked category of "games".
So, we extracted 168 lbs of honey from the hives that had capped boards. That's not as much as we'd hoped; the wet weather really did a number on the bees' foraging. But still, we're hopeful that they be able to draw more comb so we can harvest again in the fall. What we did get, though, looks really good. I can't tell you how it tastes, though, because honey is gross. LOL My husband and son love it, though.
Sounds yummy to me. I love honey.0 -
*post boyfriend update*
so that's the end of that.
after a solid month of seeing each other almost every. single. day. and him making the point to "be exclusive," dude decided that "i don't think that this is working for me."
i got about three hours of sleep last night, they weren't concurrent either. so apologies for the rambles.
first he said it was because *i* wanted too much commitment, to which i kindly reminded him that *he* was the one that wanted to be exclusive, then he just said that he wasn't sure if i was the *one* for him.
i do know that a lil more than a week ago, his ex-wife from six years ago reached out to him to try and rekindle things. he initially said he wasn't interested, maybe that changed?
or he simply just panicked and fled.
same end result.
i'd be lying if i said i wasn't devastated. and this is probably stupid of me too, but i really, honestly, thought he was the one for me. finally after all the horrors, and downright brutal treatment i endured both physically and emotionally...i thought it was actually my turn to be happy.
i'd also be lying if i said i wasn't furious with myself for allowing myself to get so involved and excited and be so foolish.
i should know better.
i do know better.
i think i'm just going to take a break from everything for a while.
my brain keeps flashing this lil image of a tiny hand setting a brick on a wall that's slowly being finished.
*ETA* can i also add how ridiculously embarrassed i am about all of this?
I am so sorry for your pain. Hugs...0 -
orangesmartie wrote: »HerkMeOff2 wrote: »I have ate at least 5000 calories today
tomorrow is a new day! (or today actually). Be kind to yourself. Do not say negative things to yourself. Do not tell yourself off. Move on and start fresh with your next meal. You got this.
Someone needs to listen to their own advice more often
0 -
The only time I was ever happy with my body was when I was dying from anorexia. Every once in a while I could see my spine and rib cage and realized that wasn't right, but only for a split second. I was (am?) legit looney about my body image.
I don't remember ever being happy with my body image. I remember deciding after I got married and my daughter was born that my health was more important than my screwed up body image. I was in recovery when I got pregnant with her... the thought of the damage I could have done to her by not feeding myself properly sobered me right up.
0 -
Finally caught up. I had SO much fun this weekend and I'm so sad it's over.
The concerts Friday and Saturday were amazing (there were a few problems with them-delay, pauses etc but overall everything was great). The weather held out for the most part. There was some lightning that I was getting worried about at about 1130 Saturday night. I didn't want them to have to cancel the rest of the show but thankfully it moved away from us finally. It was actually really cool to see the bolts of lightning with the lights and lasers from the show. I did sit in VIP for about half an hour just because I had the ticket and wanted to try and see how it was. I don't like crowds so we usually just chill in the back row. VIP was AWESOME though!
I put the jewels on my face and we all wore glowing stuff. We got a lot of compliments. My parents were able to use the two extra tickets I had and seemed to have fun too. My dad said it was like Wizard of Oz and Christmas on steroids haha. My mom said she had a lot of fun people watching (there were a lot of weird people to watch). The stage and lasers were awesome. I'm planning on putting some pictures up in the batcave when I get home. I also won a trivia game so I got a bracelet.
Yesterday was a day to relax. We swam and I put sunscreen on the areas I could reach and didn't really think much of it. Now my neck and back are burned.
My boyfriend and I got along so well. It was like the old days again. He stayed over a couple nights but we are still working on getting back to normal. The next time I probably see him will be Thursday for the therapy.
I'm so glad the weather was nice this weekend. Now we are under a flash flood warning. It's pouring here. Good timing.0
Categories
- All Categories
- 1.4M Health, Wellness and Goals
- 391.7K Introduce Yourself
- 43.5K Getting Started
- 259.7K Health and Weight Loss
- 175.6K Food and Nutrition
- 47.3K Recipes
- 232.3K Fitness and Exercise
- 394 Sleep, Mindfulness and Overall Wellness
- 6.4K Goal: Maintaining Weight
- 8.5K Goal: Gaining Weight and Body Building
- 152.7K Motivation and Support
- 7.8K Challenges
- 1.3K Debate Club
- 96.3K Chit-Chat
- 2.5K Fun and Games
- 3.3K MyFitnessPal Information
- 23 News and Announcements
- 949 Feature Suggestions and Ideas
- 2.3K MyFitnessPal Tech Support Questions