Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))
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orangesmartie wrote: »Hi all,
Sorry I haven’t been around for a while. Well I’ve been reading, but not posting. I’m having a really couple of weeks and I didn’t want to dump it all on you guys. However, I have missed you all immensely. Its strange how much I rely on this thread for fun and motivation. I don’t think you’ll ever know how much you have all helped motivate me.
My diet and exercise has gone out of the window, the binge monster is well and truly in situ and my brain is telling me all sorts of horrible things, about how fat and unfit I am, and always will be, and theres little point trying. And no matter how much weight I lose, my boyfriend will still never love me and I’ll never be able to climb the mountain and blah blah blah blah.
I look in the mirror and I hate what I see. I’m so fat and just can’t see how I’m going to get it off. And I know binge eating isn’t going to help, but I seem totally incapable of controlling it.
There’s a bit of an issue going on between my boyfriend and I. We need to address it, but I am avoiding the issue. Because, irrational me says he’s going to tell me all the things I don’t want to hear (that I believe about myself). So the poor guy has been getting a really hard time, for something I *think* he might say. I’m not being very grown up about things at the moment.
Most of the problem is I have not been taking my anti-depressants properly. I miss lots of days at a time, and that is obviously contributing to the blackness. Rationally I know I can fix that. I have reminders on my phone and email to take it, but I mostly just ignore them. I don’t know why. I know they help.
And just to make another excuse, theres a lot going on. My mum has cancer and is having her operation today. Her recovery time means I need to be home to have Charlie (2yo nephew) a lot more, which interferes with my life a bit, and well just excuses really. I feel overwhelmed with everything.
I’m sorry to dump this all on you, but a couple of people here told me it might help to get it out. And a big thank you to those of you who messaged me to check in: @pofoster21, @girldownsouth and @nonoelmo @Lois_1989. I really did appreciate it, and it was nice to think people noticed and cared enough to send a note. I hope I can remember to do the same for others.
I am trying to remember that today is a new day and all I can do is try. And some advice given to me in a message was that you will be able to help me with that. And I know its true. As a support group, you lot are amazing.
Anytime sweety, you know where I am if you need a vent/chat. You will be fine, concentrate on feeling better first.
Thank you xx i do appreciate it.Glinda1971 wrote: »@orangesmartie I'm so sorry that you are going through all that.
I'm sending you virtual hugs, tonnes of them.
And I believe you can climb that mountain!
thanks Glinda, hugs gratefully received.Susieq_1994 wrote: »orangesmartie wrote: »Hi all,
Sorry I haven’t been around for a while. Well I’ve been reading, but not posting. I’m having a really bad couple of weeks and I didn’t want to dump it all on you guys. However, I have missed you all immensely. Its strange how much I rely on this thread for fun and motivation. I don’t think you’ll ever know how much you have all helped motivate me.
My diet and exercise has gone out of the window, the binge monster is well and truly in situ and my brain is telling me all sorts of horrible things, about how fat and unfit I am, and always will be, and theres little point trying. And no matter how much weight I lose, my boyfriend will still never love me and I’ll never be able to climb the mountain and blah blah blah blah.
I look in the mirror and I hate what I see. I’m so fat and just can’t see how I’m going to get it off. And I know binge eating isn’t going to help, but I seem totally incapable of controlling it.
There’s a bit of an issue going on between my boyfriend and I. We need to address it, but I am avoiding the issue. Because, irrational me says he’s going to tell me all the things I don’t want to hear (that I believe about myself). So the poor guy has been getting a really hard time, for something I *think* he might say. I’m not being very grown up about things at the moment.
Most of the problem is I have not been taking my anti-depressants properly. I miss lots of days at a time, and that is obviously contributing to the blackness. Rationally I know I can fix that. I have reminders on my phone and email to take it, but I mostly just ignore them. I don’t know why. I know they help.
And just to make another excuse, theres a lot going on. My mum has cancer and is having her operation today. Her recovery time means I need to be home to have Charlie (2yo nephew) a lot more, which interferes with my life a bit, and well just excuses really. I feel overwhelmed with everything.
I’m sorry to dump this all on you, but a couple of people here told me it might help to get it out. And a big thank you to those of you who messaged me to check in: @pofoster21, @girldownsouth and @nonoelmo @Lois_1989. I really did appreciate it, and it was nice to think people noticed and cared enough to send a note. I hope I can remember to do the same for others.
I am trying to remember that today is a new day and all I can do is try. And some advice given to me in a message was that you will be able to help me with that. And I know its true. As a support group, you lot are amazing.
I'm so sorry to hear you're going through all that.
Missing medication will definitely cause issues, but when you're already depressed it's really hard to care. Maybe place it next to your bedside with a cup of water and just pop it into your mouth when you wake up without really thinking about it?
Dumping things is what this thread is here for! I wondered where you were, but @pofoster21 just said you were taking a little break, so I thought maybe catching up with the thread was getting to be too much work and you were busy.
Be kind to yourself! It's so easy to look in the mirror and hate what we see--I'm going through it in a big way now that I've gained 10 kg and it's really hard to get my rear in gear even with that. Self-hatred seems to make it harder, not easier. Especially with binge-eaters, from what I've read, because it creates a really vicious cycle. Try not to put yourself down, although coming from the same place of body-hating, I know that's really, really hard.
I'm really sorry about your mom--I hope that her operation and recovery go smoothly. I understand how resentment can sneak up on us when our normal lives are disrupted, even when we feel it might be misplaced--that's a very normal reaction to such a happenstance.
As for the boyfriend issues... I often find it's best to suck it up and talk it out, because otherwise it just keeps getting bigger and uglier and harder to clear up when it might have been easy to deal with at first.
Whatever happens in the next few days or weeks... Be gentle with yourself. You're not a loser or a pig or ugly or anything like that. You matter and people care about you! And also... You can totally kick that mountain's rear end!
I've tried lots of things to make me take medication, but i am really bad at medicines concordance. I've never completed a full course of antibiotics in my life.
I was taking a break from posting, because i felt i would just spray constant negativity, and I didn't want to do that to ya'll. But i couldn't not be reading, you do all make me laugh so much!
Putting myself down is my biggest problem at the minute i think, mostly due to the depression, so breaking the cycle will help that. i hope.
Boyfriend: yes i know what i need to do....just gotta suck it up and put my big girl panties lol. Its not his fault really, well it is (obviously), but i have made it 1000 times worse. we'll fix it though, i have no fear of that (assuming he doesn't say all the things i imagine lol).
And the mountain is going to put up a fight - there is 3 feet of snow on it at the moment!! I'm scared lolHugs for orangesmartie.
In figure skating, we say that falling is learning. When you're learning a new movement, a new jump etc, you will fall, and you should wear those falls as a badge of pride. You're just having a fall moment, that's all. It's a building block to your future
Thanks I may have been you, or another poster (i can't remember, sorry) who talked about ice skating before. I used to do it a lot as a kid. So I have signed up to take lessons again, as a different way of getting some fun exercise in. I expect lots of bumps and bruises though!
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lilaclovebird wrote: »pofoster21 wrote: »Italian_Buju wrote: »xLoveLikeWinterx wrote: »quiksylver296 wrote: »
Nobody's mentioned the need to remove their bra the minute they walk through the door, so I guess that's just me then..?pofoster21 wrote: »I can't handle glasses 24/7. I primarily wear contacts and then pop them out the minute I get home from work!
I've been wearing contacts for 19 years so I can take them out put them in no problem.
This is me. I have worn contacts since I was like 14 or 16. They are the first thing that comes out when I get home. They don't bother me during the day, but the second I get home they MUST come out!
Haha I'm exactly that way too! During the day I don't even think about them but once home I'm not completely comfortable until I've taken my rinse off shower, put on my sweats, and taken out my contacts!
Nope. Definitely not just you!
If I didn't wear a DD, I would. As it is, if I go braless I risk a black eye when I go up the stairs.
I find the opposite, I am a H cup and cannot WAIT to get in the door and take it off because of the weight on my shoulders.....if I was smaller it would not bother me as much I don't think....
Wait...an H cup? I didn't know that size existed! Wow. Impressive. I would hate that. Between running and riding I have always been grateful I am small chested.
I'm a 32 J.
It was SO nice to go from a 36 G to a 34 HH to a 32 J on this weight loss journey..../end sarcasm
I consulted my doctor recently and asked her when some real boob shrinkage might happen and she said 'eventually, but for some women it never happens naturally'. I cried.
I feel like gaining weight was the WORST thing I could have ever done to myself. I should have been more active. I look back and I was beautiful at 160 lbs, a 32 DD, and size 8/10, but I didn't appreciate my body.
Confession: I am terrified that I could get amazing abs and try to show 'em off an no one will notice because BOOBS! I am afraid that they will be my body's most dominant feature and that I they wont affect my quality of life enough for me to get a reduction covered by insurance. This fear gets so bad, sometimes I self sabotage. Like today when I ate an ENTIRE FAMILY SIZE BAG of Lays Original Potato chips.
Word of advice.....if you plan to have children, do not have a reduction until afterwards....
I have a friend that had a reduction at 18 years old because her breasts were so unmanageable.....and then she had two children (years later).....and had to have another one.....0 -
Italian_Buju wrote: »Italian_Buju wrote: »
I took my daughter to Ethiopian food tonight. Her first time. It is so good at least to me and she liked it a lot too. Savory and just spicy enough to be really tasty. Mmmm.
Her follow up visit with the nutritionist is tomorrow.
That looks terrible, lol....sorry, glad you enjoyed it though!
Ha! That really did make me laugh. It probably does not photograph well and, yes, my tastes don't run to sweets (except dark chocolate) but despite the lack of photogenic properties of this meal it was delicious.
I am confused.....is this another account or something?
Count me in as confused. @nonoelmo, did you take @jlwhelan2 to the Ethiopian restaurant with you? Also, when tagging, I discovered that apparently there's also a jlwhelan1... So confused.0 -
Susieq_1994 wrote: »@susieq_82 (I think that is the right Susie) You are amazing. That hummus is the best hummus. I made it tonight. YUM. Thank you
Nope, not that old! 1994 is my birth year.
I'm so glad you loved it as much as I do! You're very welcome. Did you use the 40g of tahina like I do because I'm stingy with my calories or 55g?
aaye yae yae my daughter is not "that" much younger than you...
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Susieq_1994 wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »Confession: MFP's newest blog post (http://blog.myfitnesspal.com/3-ways-your-breakfast-is-sabotaging-your-weight-loss/) is really annoying me. It's just grating on my nerves without even bothering to read it. Breakfast doesn't sabotage anyone, it's not alive! /endrant
Speak for yourself. My cat ate a spider this morning. It was alive. And had it been capable of sabotage, I'm sure a good effort would have been made.
lol! Well, live breakfast could sabotage you... Pretty badly, too. As an example, the live octopus delicacy in South Korea can stick in your throat with the suction cups on its tentacles if you don't chew it well. Nevertheless, the blog is still really annoying.
Well, that is disgusting.....and cruel
YUCK
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Susieq_1994 wrote: »*whining* Guuuuuys (Well, girls...)! I got two new abuse flags. I'm curious and I want to know what posts they were on! I hate this anonymous flagging thing--I NEED TO KNOW WHAT GOT FLAGGED. I don't care who flagged it, I just want to know what I said that was apparently so offensive!
(I actually went back to see if it was my reply to MrFitness, but it wasn't. And that's like... The rudest post I've ever made on this forum. Who would have thought!)
*end of whining*
Maybe you will end up in MFP jail soon
So young yet such a rebel!!!
How do you know you have been flagged, do they send you a message or something?0 -
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Italian_Buju wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »*whining* Guuuuuys (Well, girls...)! I got two new abuse flags. I'm curious and I want to know what posts they were on! I hate this anonymous flagging thing--I NEED TO KNOW WHAT GOT FLAGGED. I don't care who flagged it, I just want to know what I said that was apparently so offensive! (I actually went back to see if it was my reply to MrFitness, but it wasn't. And that's like... The rudest post I've ever made on this forum. Who would have thought!)
*end of whining*
Maybe you will end up in MFP jail soon
So young yet such a rebel!!!
How do you know you have been flagged, do they send you a message or something?
When you go to "All Notifications" (you can find that by clicking on the bell at the top right of the screen) there's a list of how many times you've been flagged. I have one for spam (from my spammy pimples post) and four for abuse (two of which I happen to know came from a joke post that apparently offended some people). The other two are new, and I want to know where they came from!
The mods only send you a warning if THEY find your posts against the TOS. They pretty much ignore random flags that don't make sense. By the by, @JPW1990 has been banned. If you go backwards through the thread, you'll find that her profile picture is now bright red and says "User banned; keep calm and carry on."0 -
orangesmartie wrote: »Hi all,
Sorry I haven’t been around for a while. Well I’ve been reading, but not posting. I’m having a really bad couple of weeks and I didn’t want to dump it all on you guys. However, I have missed you all immensely. Its strange how much I rely on this thread for fun and motivation. I don’t think you’ll ever know how much you have all helped motivate me.
My diet and exercise has gone out of the window, the binge monster is well and truly in situ and my brain is telling me all sorts of horrible things, about how fat and unfit I am, and always will be, and theres little point trying. And no matter how much weight I lose, my boyfriend will still never love me and I’ll never be able to climb the mountain and blah blah blah blah.
I look in the mirror and I hate what I see. I’m so fat and just can’t see how I’m going to get it off. And I know binge eating isn’t going to help, but I seem totally incapable of controlling it.
There’s a bit of an issue going on between my boyfriend and I. We need to address it, but I am avoiding the issue. Because, irrational me says he’s going to tell me all the things I don’t want to hear (that I believe about myself). So the poor guy has been getting a really hard time, for something I *think* he might say. I’m not being very grown up about things at the moment.
Most of the problem is I have not been taking my anti-depressants properly. I miss lots of days at a time, and that is obviously contributing to the blackness. Rationally I know I can fix that. I have reminders on my phone and email to take it, but I mostly just ignore them. I don’t know why. I know they help.
And just to make another excuse, theres a lot going on. My mum has cancer and is having her operation today. Her recovery time means I need to be home to have Charlie (2yo nephew) a lot more, which interferes with my life a bit, and well just excuses really. I feel overwhelmed with everything.
I’m sorry to dump this all on you, but a couple of people here told me it might help to get it out. And a big thank you to those of you who messaged me to check in: @pofoster21, @girldownsouth and @nonoelmo @Lois_1989. I really did appreciate it, and it was nice to think people noticed and cared enough to send a note. I hope I can remember to do the same for others.
I am trying to remember that today is a new day and all I can do is try. And some advice given to me in a message was that you will be able to help me with that. And I know its true. As a support group, you lot are amazing.
I have been wondering where you were! Glad to see you, but so sorry you are having such a rough time!
PLEASE take your medication! If you just force yourself for a week or so, you should start to feel a bit better and then it will be easier to keep going!0 -
Italian_Buju wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »Confession: MFP's newest blog post (http://blog.myfitnesspal.com/3-ways-your-breakfast-is-sabotaging-your-weight-loss/) is really annoying me. It's just grating on my nerves without even bothering to read it. Breakfast doesn't sabotage anyone, it's not alive! /endrant
Speak for yourself. My cat ate a spider this morning. It was alive. And had it been capable of sabotage, I'm sure a good effort would have been made.
lol! Well, live breakfast could sabotage you... Pretty badly, too. As an example, the live octopus delicacy in South Korea can stick in your throat with the suction cups on its tentacles if you don't chew it well. Nevertheless, the blog is still really annoying.
Well, that is disgusting.....and cruel
YUCK
How is boiling a lobster alive any different? Oysters are often also eaten alive. Seafood in general seems to be eaten in pretty cruel ways, for some reason. :-/ Why can't they kill the poor things first?0 -
Susieq_1994 wrote: »Confession: MFP's newest blog post (http://blog.myfitnesspal.com/3-ways-your-breakfast-is-sabotaging-your-weight-loss/) is really annoying me. It's just grating on my nerves without even bothering to read it. Breakfast doesn't sabotage anyone, it's not alive! /endrant
Lol I saw it on my FB feed this morning. Made me want to unlike MFP right there. They post so much broscience. Ugh.0 -
kelly_c_77 wrote: »Checking in from page 918. I spent the last 37 hours in bed. No joke. On average, my Fitbit tells me I take 27,000 steps a day. Yesterday, my total was 414. I got so unbelievably sick Monday afternoon that I called my husband home from work early so I could rest. After lots and lots of vomiting(sorry) and sleeping and a tiny bit of food yesterday, I'm feeling much better. Not quite 100% but ok enough that my husband went back to work today (he took yesterday off because we don't have anyone else to help watch our son). Anyway, while I am very thankful that my husband took time off from work checking in on me and making sure I had everything I needed and he kept our son happy, fed, (and alive)...holy cow, the house(kitchen mostly) was a disaster! Like I said, I was literally in bed for 37 hours except for bathroom trips so when I came downstairs this morning...OMG! Dishes, crumbs, empty cans, cat's water bowl just about empty,..etc etc. Thank goodness I'm back to join the living because I'm afraid to see what the house would have looked like after another day without me!
Hope everyone else is doing well..I've got some catching up to do...in between cleaning!!
ETA: I hope I don't sound b*tchy...I really do appreciate my husband..so, so much for so many things beyond helping me when I am sick. I think it's just nice to see that I am needed..he got a glimpse into my day as a stay at home mom...it's not just all relaxing with our son playing games, and having fun. There's cleaning, laundry, dishes, and meals to be made, cats to take care of, etc. etc.
Ok enough.
Glad you are feeling a bit better! I think most of us have experienced what happens when we are out sick for a day or two......0 -
orangesmartie wrote: »Hi all,
Sorry I haven’t been around for a while. Well I’ve been reading, but not posting. I’m having a really bad couple of weeks and I didn’t want to dump it all on you guys. However, I have missed you all immensely. Its strange how much I rely on this thread for fun and motivation. I don’t think you’ll ever know how much you have all helped motivate me.
My diet and exercise has gone out of the window, the binge monster is well and truly in situ and my brain is telling me all sorts of horrible things, about how fat and unfit I am, and always will be, and theres little point trying. And no matter how much weight I lose, my boyfriend will still never love me and I’ll never be able to climb the mountain and blah blah blah blah.
I look in the mirror and I hate what I see. I’m so fat and just can’t see how I’m going to get it off. And I know binge eating isn’t going to help, but I seem totally incapable of controlling it.
There’s a bit of an issue going on between my boyfriend and I. We need to address it, but I am avoiding the issue. Because, irrational me says he’s going to tell me all the things I don’t want to hear (that I believe about myself). So the poor guy has been getting a really hard time, for something I *think* he might say. I’m not being very grown up about things at the moment.
Most of the problem is I have not been taking my anti-depressants properly. I miss lots of days at a time, and that is obviously contributing to the blackness. Rationally I know I can fix that. I have reminders on my phone and email to take it, but I mostly just ignore them. I don’t know why. I know they help.
And just to make another excuse, theres a lot going on. My mum has cancer and is having her operation today. Her recovery time means I need to be home to have Charlie (2yo nephew) a lot more, which interferes with my life a bit, and well just excuses really. I feel overwhelmed with everything.
I’m sorry to dump this all on you, but a couple of people here told me it might help to get it out. And a big thank you to those of you who messaged me to check in: @pofoster21, @girldownsouth and @nonoelmo @Lois_1989. I really did appreciate it, and it was nice to think people noticed and cared enough to send a note. I hope I can remember to do the same for others.
I am trying to remember that today is a new day and all I can do is try. And some advice given to me in a message was that you will be able to help me with that. And I know its true. As a support group, you lot are amazing.
Please take your meds! I hope things get better for you.0 -
Confession - woke up after 8 hours of sleep and still completely beat. BLEH.
Confession #2 - stepped on the scale for the first time in a month and I was down half a pound! Should probably lose a bit more this week. So psyched about that.
Confession #3 - kids leave for school in 20 minutes and I still haven't packed their lunch.
Confession #4 - the kids might have a playdate today but maybe not and I hate not knowing, because it means I have to workout this morning while they are in school.0 -
Susieq_1994 wrote: »Italian_Buju wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »*whining* Guuuuuys (Well, girls...)! I got two new abuse flags. I'm curious and I want to know what posts they were on! I hate this anonymous flagging thing--I NEED TO KNOW WHAT GOT FLAGGED. I don't care who flagged it, I just want to know what I said that was apparently so offensive! (I actually went back to see if it was my reply to MrFitness, but it wasn't. And that's like... The rudest post I've ever made on this forum. Who would have thought!)
*end of whining*
Maybe you will end up in MFP jail soon
So young yet such a rebel!!!
How do you know you have been flagged, do they send you a message or something?
When you go to "All Notifications" (you can find that by clicking on the bell at the top right of the screen) there's a list of how many times you've been flagged. I have one for spam (from my spammy pimples post) and four for abuse (two of which I happen to know came from a joke post that apparently offended some people). The other two are new, and I want to know where they came from!
The mods only send you a warning if THEY find your posts against the TOS. They pretty much ignore random flags that don't make sense. By the by, @JPW1990 has been banned. If you go backwards through the thread, you'll find that her profile picture is now bright red and says "User banned; keep calm and carry on."
OMG I wonder why!!!????
I am gonna check and see if I have any flags now, lol0 -
Susieq_1994 wrote: »Italian_Buju wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »Confession: MFP's newest blog post (http://blog.myfitnesspal.com/3-ways-your-breakfast-is-sabotaging-your-weight-loss/) is really annoying me. It's just grating on my nerves without even bothering to read it. Breakfast doesn't sabotage anyone, it's not alive! /endrant
Speak for yourself. My cat ate a spider this morning. It was alive. And had it been capable of sabotage, I'm sure a good effort would have been made.
lol! Well, live breakfast could sabotage you... Pretty badly, too. As an example, the live octopus delicacy in South Korea can stick in your throat with the suction cups on its tentacles if you don't chew it well. Nevertheless, the blog is still really annoying.
Well, that is disgusting.....and cruel
YUCK
How is boiling a lobster alive any different? Oysters are often also eaten alive. Seafood in general seems to be eaten in pretty cruel ways, for some reason. :-/ Why can't they kill the poor things first?
AGREED!
On an unrelated note, I no longer feel the need for breakfast......
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Confession: I haven't slept properly in days (my circadian rhythm is messed up and I'm trying to force-fix it by waking up and going to bed at the same time every day, regardless of how much I actually slept), and today I'm just really sick of being exhausted and I'm all cravey and want to eat everything. I'm already at maintenance for the day (I have dinner pre-logged, but that's not for hours) if I don't snack on anything else today, which is doubtful. I'm doomed.0
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Italian_Buju wrote: »lilaclovebird wrote: »pofoster21 wrote: »Italian_Buju wrote: »xLoveLikeWinterx wrote: »quiksylver296 wrote: »
Nobody's mentioned the need to remove their bra the minute they walk through the door, so I guess that's just me then..?pofoster21 wrote: »I can't handle glasses 24/7. I primarily wear contacts and then pop them out the minute I get home from work! I've been wearing contacts for 19 years so I can take them out put them in no problem.
This is me. I have worn contacts since I was like 14 or 16. They are the first thing that comes out when I get home. They don't bother me during the day, but the second I get home they MUST come out!
Haha I'm exactly that way too! During the day I don't even think about them but once home I'm not completely comfortable until I've taken my rinse off shower, put on my sweats, and taken out my contacts!
Nope. Definitely not just you!
If I didn't wear a DD, I would. As it is, if I go braless I risk a black eye when I go up the stairs.
I find the opposite, I am a H cup and cannot WAIT to get in the door and take it off because of the weight on my shoulders.....if I was smaller it would not bother me as much I don't think....
Wait...an H cup? I didn't know that size existed! Wow. Impressive. I would hate that. Between running and riding I have always been grateful I am small chested.
I'm a 32 J.
It was SO nice to go from a 36 G to a 34 HH to a 32 J on this weight loss journey..../end sarcasm
I consulted my doctor recently and asked her when some real boob shrinkage might happen and she said 'eventually, but for some women it never happens naturally'. I cried.
I feel like gaining weight was the WORST thing I could have ever done to myself. I should have been more active. I look back and I was beautiful at 160 lbs, a 32 DD, and size 8/10, but I didn't appreciate my body.
Confession: I am terrified that I could get amazing abs and try to show 'em off an no one will notice because BOOBS! I am afraid that they will be my body's most dominant feature and that I they wont affect my quality of life enough for me to get a reduction covered by insurance. This fear gets so bad, sometimes I self sabotage. Like today when I ate an ENTIRE FAMILY SIZE BAG of Lays Original Potato chips.
Word of advice.....if you plan to have children, do not have a reduction until afterwards....
I have a friend that had a reduction at 18 years old because her breasts were so unmanageable.....and then she had two children (years later).....and had to have another one.....
This is why I'm waiting until I hit goal weight and stay at goal for at least a year until I start considering plastics. I need a lot of it no doubt (honestly; I went on 2 plastic surgery consults before I got pregnant with my youngest and they both said I'll need a lower body lift/breast reduction/brachioplasty) and we're done having kids, so now once I lose and maintain, I'm seriously considering it. I HATE being a saggy 36DD. I'm close to a 34DD but honestly they're just weird. I would be happy with a B or C.0 -
Susieq_1994 wrote: »Confession: MFP's newest blog post (http://blog.myfitnesspal.com/3-ways-your-breakfast-is-sabotaging-your-weight-loss/) is really annoying me. It's just grating on my nerves without even bothering to read it. Breakfast doesn't sabotage anyone, it's not alive! /endrant
Lol I saw it on my FB feed this morning. Made me want to unlike MFP right there. They post so much broscience. Ugh.
I love that you called it broscience lol...because it totally is.0 -
So today is the last day of school for my son......last 7am lunch I need to pack for a while! Well, except when I am going to work first thing, but that is not daily....I usually do not start until around 10-11am most days....
So I will be able to sleep until 9am a lot of days if I need/want to.
My skin is looking better....still need to get a bit darker, but can start to tell a difference in my psoriasis already.
Two weeks until the pools open, and I am super excited! I love to swim!
Ok, here is something that has been on my mind a few times recently.....
Is it just me, or does everyone's body make huge amounts of urine when they are sleeping??
As I have said before, during the day, I can go like 12+ hours without using the bathroom.....however, whenever I sleep, even if it is just a nap in the day, I have to pee as soon as I wake up without fail.
At night, I go to bed around 11, I go right before getting into bed.....most nights I will wake up once in the middle of the night and go, say around 3-4am....when my alarm goes off at 7am, I can barely wait to get in there again....if someone beats me to the bathroom I have to sit in one spot until I can go so I don't pee myself. If it is a day where I need more sleep and can do so, I will go back to bed, and need to pee again right when I wake up.....even though I have not had anything to drink in about 8-12 hours at this point.
Does this happen to everyone?? I just do not understand where it is coming from after not drinking for so long!0 -
orangesmartie wrote: »Thanks I may have been you, or another poster (i can't remember, sorry) who talked about ice skating before. I used to do it a lot as a kid. So I have signed up to take lessons again, as a different way of getting some fun exercise in. I expect lots of bumps and bruises though!
Yes! This is a great idea. You're never too old to learn!...or go back to learning!0 -
If I am really tired I have no control over my eating it seems, all I want to do is carb load!Susieq_1994 wrote: »Confession: I haven't slept properly in days (my circadian rhythm is messed up and I'm trying to force-fix it by waking up and going to bed at the same time every day, regardless of how much I actually slept), and today I'm just really sick of being exhausted and I'm all cravey and want to eat everything. I'm already at maintenance for the day (I have dinner pre-logged, but that's not for hours) if I don't snack on anything else today, which is doubtful. I'm doomed.
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Susieq_1994 wrote: »FluffySandwich wrote: »
I.... what?? 122 F?Susieq_1994 wrote: »Confession.... Kroger didn't have that Halo Top ice cream so instead I bought some 'artic' something @ 150 cal a pint. I got orange crème as I love that flavor and am highly critical so it will be the true taste test for me. We'll see. I am annoyed though the one time I visit Kroger, they don't have what I came for. This is the same store that up ended everything so shopping takes forever. I doubt I'll be going back unless it's for a cheap tray of sushi.
Just as a warning, that brand has the WORST reputation ever for tasting awful. I've never tried it myself. I think it's called Arctic Zero or something like that?
Confession: Since I have established that nothing is off-limits anymore and have successfully kept vanilla ice cream in my freezer, I used that to justify buying a Speculoos ice cream with chunks of speculoos cookies in it tonight. Also, it's nearly 50 C (122 F) outside, and to keep my beloved ice cream from melting into a puddle on the way home, I held it up to the A/C the. ENTIRE. WAY. I also chanted encouraging slogans, like "You can do this!" and "Hang in there, don't die on me!" and "Please don't die, I love you! I've always loved you!"
My husband may have sniggered a little at my expense. But my ice cream survived, so there.
I was born and raised in a place where it can get pretty freaking hot, but the most I've ever seen was around 105 F. 122 F is something I can't even imagine
That's not even the maximum. 55 C happens, and a few summers we've hit 60 C. You'd just melt! The heat in the Gulf countries is pretty crazy.
So, 60C is 140F. What the what? It was right around 100F here Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, and supposed to be up there again today. I don't know how people lived without air conditioning!0 -
kellienw335 wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »FluffySandwich wrote: »
I.... what?? 122 F?Susieq_1994 wrote: »Confession.... Kroger didn't have that Halo Top ice cream so instead I bought some 'artic' something @ 150 cal a pint. I got orange crème as I love that flavor and am highly critical so it will be the true taste test for me. We'll see. I am annoyed though the one time I visit Kroger, they don't have what I came for. This is the same store that up ended everything so shopping takes forever. I doubt I'll be going back unless it's for a cheap tray of sushi.
Just as a warning, that brand has the WORST reputation ever for tasting awful. I've never tried it myself. I think it's called Arctic Zero or something like that?
Confession: Since I have established that nothing is off-limits anymore and have successfully kept vanilla ice cream in my freezer, I used that to justify buying a Speculoos ice cream with chunks of speculoos cookies in it tonight. Also, it's nearly 50 C (122 F) outside, and to keep my beloved ice cream from melting into a puddle on the way home, I held it up to the A/C the. ENTIRE. WAY. I also chanted encouraging slogans, like "You can do this!" and "Hang in there, don't die on me!" and "Please don't die, I love you! I've always loved you!"
My husband may have sniggered a little at my expense. But my ice cream survived, so there. I was born and raised in a place where it can get pretty freaking hot, but the most I've ever seen was around 105 F. 122 F is something I can't even imagine
That's not even the maximum. 55 C happens, and a few summers we've hit 60 C. You'd just melt! The heat in the Gulf countries is pretty crazy.
So, 60C is 140F. What the what? It was right around 100F here Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, and supposed to be up there again today. I don't know how people lived without air conditioning!
THIS!
It doesn't even get to 100F here normally, but I agree!!
I love to sit out in the sun, but when I come inside, I like climate control!0 -
girldownsouth wrote: »Did anyone else find one of the recent confessions super creepy? Not quoting it because no judgement, but I confess I am totally judging that!
Yes, I saw that. Gross and creepy.0 -
Confession.... the punkass Kroger didn't have that Halo Top ice cream so instead I bought some 'artic' something @ 150 cal a pint. I got orange crème as I love that flavor and am highly critical so it will be the true taste test for me. We'll see. I am annoyed though the one time I visit Kroger, they don't have what I came for. This is the same store that up ended everything so shopping takes forever. I doubt I'll be going back unless it's for a cheap tray of sushi.
Arctic Zero is pretty much the worst thing to ever happen to ice cream. 0 -
Italian_Buju wrote: »So today is the last day of school for my son......last 7am lunch I need to pack for a while! Well, except when I am going to work first thing, but that is not daily....I usually do not start until around 10-11am most days....
So I will be able to sleep until 9am a lot of days if I need/want to.
My skin is looking better....still need to get a bit darker, but can start to tell a difference in my psoriasis already.
Two weeks until the pools open, and I am super excited! I love to swim!
Ok, here is something that has been on my mind a few times recently.....
Is it just me, or does everyone's body make huge amounts of urine when they are sleeping??
As I have said before, during the day, I can go like 12+ hours without using the bathroom.....however, whenever I sleep, even if it is just a nap in the day, I have to pee as soon as I wake up without fail.
At night, I go to bed around 11, I go right before getting into bed.....most nights I will wake up once in the middle of the night and go, say around 3-4am....when my alarm goes off at 7am, I can barely wait to get in there again....if someone beats me to the bathroom I have to sit in one spot until I can go so I don't pee myself. If it is a day where I need more sleep and can do so, I will go back to bed, and need to pee again right when I wake up.....even though I have not had anything to drink in about 8-12 hours at this point.
Does this happen to everyone?? I just do not understand where it is coming from after not drinking for so long!
Not me, I pee a ton during the day too. But yes some mornings I wake up and I swear I'm peeing non stop for 2 minutes.
I'm jealous of your sleeping until 9am though. I'm always up before my kids but even if I wasn't, they'd wake me up by 7am most days. My husband NEVER gets up with them. It's always me... Last time I slept in was until 8am when we changed time in March, lol.Susieq_1994 wrote: »Confession: I haven't slept properly in days (my circadian rhythm is messed up and I'm trying to force-fix it by waking up and going to bed at the same time every day, regardless of how much I actually slept), and today I'm just really sick of being exhausted and I'm all cravey and want to eat everything. I'm already at maintenance for the day (I have dinner pre-logged, but that's not for hours) if I don't snack on anything else today, which is doubtful. I'm doomed.
I've had those days. When I'm tired, it's just a disaster diet-wise.xLoveLikeWinterx wrote: »Italian_Buju wrote: »lilaclovebird wrote: »pofoster21 wrote: »Italian_Buju wrote: »xLoveLikeWinterx wrote: »quiksylver296 wrote: »
Nobody's mentioned the need to remove their bra the minute they walk through the door, so I guess that's just me then..?pofoster21 wrote: »I can't handle glasses 24/7. I primarily wear contacts and then pop them out the minute I get home from work! I've been wearing contacts for 19 years so I can take them out put them in no problem.
This is me. I have worn contacts since I was like 14 or 16. They are the first thing that comes out when I get home. They don't bother me during the day, but the second I get home they MUST come out!
Haha I'm exactly that way too! During the day I don't even think about them but once home I'm not completely comfortable until I've taken my rinse off shower, put on my sweats, and taken out my contacts!
Nope. Definitely not just you!
If I didn't wear a DD, I would. As it is, if I go braless I risk a black eye when I go up the stairs.
I find the opposite, I am a H cup and cannot WAIT to get in the door and take it off because of the weight on my shoulders.....if I was smaller it would not bother me as much I don't think....
Wait...an H cup? I didn't know that size existed! Wow. Impressive. I would hate that. Between running and riding I have always been grateful I am small chested.
I'm a 32 J.
It was SO nice to go from a 36 G to a 34 HH to a 32 J on this weight loss journey..../end sarcasm
I consulted my doctor recently and asked her when some real boob shrinkage might happen and she said 'eventually, but for some women it never happens naturally'. I cried.
I feel like gaining weight was the WORST thing I could have ever done to myself. I should have been more active. I look back and I was beautiful at 160 lbs, a 32 DD, and size 8/10, but I didn't appreciate my body.
Confession: I am terrified that I could get amazing abs and try to show 'em off an no one will notice because BOOBS! I am afraid that they will be my body's most dominant feature and that I they wont affect my quality of life enough for me to get a reduction covered by insurance. This fear gets so bad, sometimes I self sabotage. Like today when I ate an ENTIRE FAMILY SIZE BAG of Lays Original Potato chips.
Word of advice.....if you plan to have children, do not have a reduction until afterwards....
I have a friend that had a reduction at 18 years old because her breasts were so unmanageable.....and then she had two children (years later).....and had to have another one.....
This is why I'm waiting until I hit goal weight and stay at goal for at least a year until I start considering plastics. I need a lot of it no doubt (honestly; I went on 2 plastic surgery consults before I got pregnant with my youngest and they both said I'll need a lower body lift/breast reduction/brachioplasty) and we're done having kids, so now once I lose and maintain, I'm seriously considering it. I HATE being a saggy 36DD. I'm close to a 34DD but honestly they're just weird. I would be happy with a B or C.
I've seen posts of women who wanted to get a reduction while they were still obese and honestly I just shook my head. I guess it's their money and it's not my business if they throw it out of the window, but I just don't get it.
For what it's worth... I had very saggy 38 DDDs. Now I'm a 36 C / 34 D and they don't sag anymore (I know, I have a large frame, lol). They actually look pretty good. Might be because I've been doing chest exercises the whole time or something, but I'm not complaining (still need a bra, but heck I can workout without one and it's not even that bad).0 -
Glinda1971 wrote: »FluffySandwich wrote: »Italian_Buju wrote: »FluffySandwich wrote: »
Yep. I pretty much always change into pajamas when I get home, and don't remove them at all if I'm staying in... so whenever a neighbor stops by or a postman shows up at my door to deliver something I didn't expect, it's embarrassing (I usually try and quickly change into some jeans at least). I feel so lazy
Nobody's mentioned the need to remove their bra the minute they walk through the door, so I guess that's just me then..?pofoster21 wrote: »I can't handle glasses 24/7. I primarily wear contacts and then pop them out the minute I get home from work! I've been wearing contacts for 19 years so I can take them out put them in no problem.
This is me. I have worn contacts since I was like 14 or 16. They are the first thing that comes out when I get home. They don't bother me during the day, but the second I get home they MUST come out!
Haha I'm exactly that way too! During the day I don't even think about them but once home I'm not completely comfortable until I've taken my rinse off shower, put on my sweats, and taken out my contacts!
I used to... now I don't care that much anymore. I still frequently change into PJs at 5pm or something though... which has been embarrassing a couple times when people showed up unexpectedly.
I change into PJs as soon as I get home too, and I do not get embarrassed at all....why am I gonna sit around in clothes at home??
I like the way you think. In fact, we should be able to wear PJs in public. Maximum comfort for everyone, always.
As soon as I come in the yoga pants and oversize tee go on and the bra comes off. If someone stops by the only thing I do is put the bra back on.
Same. If I am home and nobody is coming over, I am in yoga pants or comfy shorts, sports bra and a tank top. I change into regular clothes to go out shopping...and then change back immediately once I'm back in the door. Winter time is awesome because I'll only wear sports bras..you can't tell underneath my sweatshirts and my winter coat so it's all good. If we actually have somewhere to go (aka a party or something) where I don't wear a sweatshirt or have to take off my coat, I would actually put on a normal bra...but again, it's off the second I'm back home.0 -
AccItalian_Buju wrote: »Italian_Buju wrote: »
I took my daughter to Ethiopian food tonight. Her first time. It is so good at least to me and she liked it a lot too. Savory and just spicy enough to be really tasty. Mmmm.
Her follow up visit with the nutritionist is tomorrow.
That looks terrible, lol....sorry, glad you enjoyed it though!
Ha! That really did make me laugh. It probably does not photograph well and, yes, my tastes don't run to sweets (except dark chocolate) but despite the lack of photogenic properties of this meal it was delicious.
I am confused.....is this another account or something?
It appears my ex has an account from years ago I accidentally accessed. if I recall when I joined years ago I set one up for him too and I guess used a similar password. Not sure how I did it last night but logged myself out in a hurry and put a better password on mine. I did that with pandora recently too. Due to account stuff I had to keep one email account that was both of ours and I may have signed in with that? We used to use the same password for everything and as this was an old account I reopened I had been lazy and not changed the password. I have since.
EDIT: I was confused too - but I went digging. I used MFP multiple years ago and had opened one for my ex once upon a time. I went in, found one was the unused (except for my accidental post) and the other a very old account not used in years. I deleted both so I don't accidentally do that and confuse everyone again. The only account I'm actively using is this one and I think I've removed the other two. Thank you @Italian_Buju for drawing both accounts to my attention. I think it is all fixed now.
Edit and thank you to @Susieq_1994 too! I am so sorry for the confusion!0 -
kelly_c_77 wrote: »Checking in from page 918. I spent the last 37 hours in bed. No joke. On average, my Fitbit tells me I take 27,000 steps a day. Yesterday, my total was 414. I got so unbelievably sick Monday afternoon that I called my husband home from work early so I could rest. After lots and lots of vomiting(sorry) and sleeping and a tiny bit of food yesterday, I'm feeling much better. Not quite 100% but ok enough that my husband went back to work today (he took yesterday off because we don't have anyone else to help watch our son). Anyway, while I am very thankful that my husband took time off from work checking in on me and making sure I had everything I needed and he kept our son happy, fed, (and alive)...holy cow, the house(kitchen mostly) was a disaster! Like I said, I was literally in bed for 37 hours except for bathroom trips so when I came downstairs this morning...OMG! Dishes, crumbs, empty cans, cat's water bowl just about empty,..etc etc. Thank goodness I'm back to join the living because I'm afraid to see what the house would have looked like after another day without me!
Hope everyone else is doing well..I've got some catching up to do...in between cleaning!!
ETA: I hope I don't sound b*tchy...I really do appreciate my husband..so, so much for so many things beyond helping me when I am sick. I think it's just nice to see that I am needed..he got a glimpse into my day as a stay at home mom...it's not just all relaxing with our son playing games, and having fun. There's cleaning, laundry, dishes, and meals to be made, cats to take care of, etc. etc.
Ok enough.
Totally get it! I'm not a SAHM, but my husband isn't super helpful around the house.0
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