Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))
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This thread is the only reason I'm still here. I had gained ~2 - 3 lbs and since I'm short it showed. I've lost it and probably would have changed my mind about taking it down another few pounds (still well within the middle of the healthy range for my height). I'm glad I've stayed. I've now lost five pounds and today I could tell! My waist is down 1.5 inches! I have somewhere around 1 - 4 pounds to go (depends on fluctuation and how my body feels. I know from my early 20's that when I get more than 7 - 8 pounds lighter than I am now I tended to get sick often even though I was still "healthy" by the charts.) I've made some good changes and want to thank you all for being yourselves and being supportive and great!
Congratulations, and thank you in return for your support! I think I would still log but I too spend an inordinate amount of time here simply for this thread!0 -
quiksylver296 wrote: »@nonoelmo That poem is fabulous. So amazing. Pretty much speechless.
Thank you all. The poem is written by one of the writers of Sesame Street who has a son with Down Syndrome.
There is a grieving process in realizing you will have a special needs child. Without really even knowing it we all imagine and dream of the things our children will possibly do in the future. I am not saying my son's future is "limited" just that he falls outside of the typical boy. He is the biggest influence in the person I now am. He is the reason I went back to school and earned my PhD. He changed me for the better.
Edit to add: I am more patient, have more perspective on what is important, have more tolerance. I'm better on all levels than I was before my boy. He's wonderful.
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But that's exactly the point - you love it so that's great! I don't love it, but wonder if that can be great too... A lot of MFP makes me feel that NOT wanting to lift means that when I get to my goal weight (which is near the top of the 'normal' range for my height) I'll still be a fatty blob.I don't do low carb and I like to lift heavy things
*runs and hides*
But I have no problem with whatever works for YOU (general you)! Hence while I lurk all those threads and read but never post- to each their own!
I enjoy lifting, but the reason I started doing it at 213lb is because I'm struggling to lose weight and the Dr suggested I up my muscle mass underneath so my body has to use more calories on a day to day basis. Apparently. An appointment will be made soon because this theory isn't working. Pretty sure my Dr doesn't have a clue.0 -
berlynnwall wrote: »xLoveLikeWinterx wrote: »So… I mostly need a place to noodle this around and get it out. I work for my State as a government analyst, so I have to be kinda vague and can't get into specifics. I make decent $, not great. Job security is awesome, but I like $ and I like to be challenged. I have an MBA already and I’m feeling the itch to go back and get my MS in Finance. It would be stupid to get an MS if I’m going to stay in government. I only need my BA for my job, so I’m already over-qualified.
I love the job security, but I hate that it’s not challenging, no advancement other than getting the standard automated raise every year, etc. I also love the thought of using my brain again (I’m a weirdo that loves school).
Hubby says do it, but if I do, I have to get out of government work (I can make at least $10-$15k/yr more in private sector work and raises are usually better). In private sector, the degree would pay for itself within 2 years, maybe less. Am I crazy to want to get out of “safe” government work into private companies?
I am a person who loves school too. I actually take free classes on coursera for no reason other than the fact that I enjoy learning. I don't think it's crazy to want to be more fulfilled at work. I would say go for it.
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kellienw335 wrote: »Confession: I don’t know what my goal weight should be. I’m 5’9 and currently weigh 221. (That’s a big step since I’ve never admitted that to anyone!) I had the goal set at 200, but didn’t feel like that was low enough. It’s now set at 190, but now I don’t feel like that is low enough either. I weighed 180 the year before my son was born and felt awesome. I weighed 160 when I graduated from high school (and thought I was fat). I know I’ll probably find a weight where I feel comfortable and don’t have to kill myself in the gym every day. I understand all the numbers. Just not sure if I can get back to the 160s mainly because I don’t know if I have the dedication. Looking for some advice from some of you. That seems like a lot of numbers and rambling.
Maybe just set an attainable goal of 10 lbs over x amount of time and when you get there see how you feel and if you have a next goal? I have a weight loss tracker that goes for 40 days. I set my goal to that and try to attain that mini goal. The I reset 40 days later to the next goal. I have lost all my weight doing this as the mini goals seem so much more attainable than the 'big' number.0 -
xMrBunglex wrote: »I confess I scored some serious Husband Points today - last week I ordered flowers for my wife to be delivered to her office today, and made the card out from the cats.
Just talked to her, she's giddy! (Fist pump)
If she thinks the cats sent them why do you get the points? Maybe they get some extra treats instead for being so thoughtful.0 -
smashley_mashley wrote: »Glinda1971 wrote: »
Ahhh, no judgement but WHAT! Frozen is one thing I can understand but no Grease or Dirty Dancing!? Oh my goodness you're missing out, I love, love, love those movies! I can still perform every song from Grease if asked to do so haha
Me too!!
In fact, next time my musical hating husband is out, I know what's going in the DVD player.
I also loved Chicago with Catherine Zeta-Jones and Rene Zellweiger (I think I spelled that right but probably not). I had no idea Catherine could belt it out like that!
Ok, yea, I saw Chicago in the Theater for my 21st Birthday and it had one of the ladies from Destiny's Child (Not Beyonce obv) and it was pretty damn good. The other musical I would see again is Jersey Boys. In a heartbeat.0 -
kellypence wrote: »My son will be 10 in two weeks and wets the bed (still) on average twice a month. He could sleep through a hurricane, so I really do feel that he is just not getting the "signal" to get up on those nights he's wetting. We make sure the majority of liquids come early in the day and that the very last thing he does before getting under the covers is go pee. If his sheets are wet in the morning, he strips the bed.
On another note, he will be going to his first ever sleep away camp this August for a week and I am terrified.
To those with potty training issues....as a physical therapist specializing in Women's Health (esp pelvic floor dysfunction, though not necessarily pediatric), consider that your kids might be what's termed "functionally constipated". In other words, they're pooping regularly, however they're a couple days behind in eliminating waste. Try the corn test (if they're anything like my 6.5 year old son or my husband for that matter, they'll think it's cool). Don't have corn for at least 7-10 days, then give them a really big serving and tell them to watch for the corn in their poop. It should pass completely in 18-24 hours, however it frequently takes 3-7 days for someone with functional constipation to pass the corn. If it takes more than 2 days, it likely indicates a larger-than-it-should-be colon, which takes up space in the pelvic bowl, not allowing complete expansion of the bladder (kind of like being 8 months pregnant) and nighttime wetting. Shrinking the colon (usually via long term use of Miralax - think 3-6 months to a year) generally ends the nighttime wetting.
Just a thought, obviously check with your pediatrician...
Oh, and 'cause this is the confessions thread and here I am chiming in after 817 pages of silence (and being a couple pages behind) I confess that I've lurked since the beginning and have enjoyed voyeuristically spending time with ya'll, however as in real life, haven't felt as though my speaking would improve the silence. Hopefully though, that tidbit might help (and may possibly have many of you checking your poops for corn more often).[/quote]
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quiksylver296 wrote: »
Ahhh, no judgement but WHAT! Frozen is one thing I can understand but no Grease or Dirty Dancing!? Oh my goodness you're missing out, I love, love, love those movies! I can still perform every song from Grease if asked to do so haha
And The Princess Bride! All required watching.
Confession: I hate Frozen. Elsa is a selfish witch, imo.
I love The Princess Bride, Dirty Dancing and Grease. And Pretty Woman. Love Pretty Woman!0 -
I made it back from my holiday I am trying to read some/most of the old posts, but I don't know if I'll be able to get through them all (there were over 2000 new ones!). I had a great time in AZ, went to check out the Desert Museum just outside of Tucson (thanks for the suggestion!). Ate some foods I can't get here, and thought I broke a couple toes (but now I think they're just very bruised.)
Confession: I puked my guts out landing in Phoenix and again landing back in Edmonton. One of my first thoughts after each time was "I don't have to count those calories, right?"
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Ok, didn't want to make you feel bad. If you're interested, here's what we did to solve the situation: Put him on small foam mattress on floor with a waterproof cover (he usually sleeps in a heavy mattressed queen bed) with a pile of clean sheets. He was required to check his bed every morning and if wet, wash and dry the sheets and his clothes, and put the bed back together. We did also restrict his drinks to little sips after 6pm. Within a week he was regularly dry, and reliably dry within 2 weeks.
They are. My youngest son wet the bed until he was almost 13. I was starting to worry I'd be having to take his wife aside and have a word about their wedding night sheets.raelynnsmama52512 wrote: »kellienw335 wrote: »raelynnsmama52512 wrote: »kellyjellybellyjelly wrote: »raelynnsmama52512 wrote: »Oh, and what do the cool moms and kiddos do on Sunday morning? Matching Frozen color manicures of course! (Proud mommy moment, a few months ago just the idea of something touching her hands made her panic, now she loves having her nails painted! Small victories over Sensory Processing Disorder!)
Aww, how adorable!
Whoo for the small victory:).
My two year old niece is obsessed with Frozen! Her brother the one day asked if she was a boy or a girl & she said no to both & he asked what she was. Her answer...Elsa hahaha.
Haha! That sounds like my daughter too! All Frozen, all the time. If it's not playing on some DVD player in my house on loop, she's still running around singing "Let it Go" and proclaiming herself to be Elsa. I've tried to use that to my advantage with the potty training endeavors, but still no luck...
Potty training at our house too! Does your little one go to daycare or are you a SAHM? Ours goes to daycare and she did pretty well this weekend. Only one accident yesterday, but we put a diaper on when she sleeps.
I'm a SAHM. She knows how everything works, what to do, and how to do it. The thing is, she won't do it. We bought panties and the waterproof ones to cover those, just so I'm not spending all day mopping up puddles of pee when she has accidents. She tries, but she tries after she pees or poops herself. The big goal is to have her potty trained before she starts 3K in September. Add in her sensory challenges and anxiety issues, and I have a feeling we're going to be at it awhile.
Potty training was a nightmare in my house. My son still pooped his pants regularly at 4.5. I had to take him to a therapist, but thankfully it helped. Now he's almost 7.5 and he still won't wipe half the time and still pees his bed once a week (and won't tell me, of course, until it's bedtime and the bed reeks and I have a lot of laundry to do the next day. Then he sleeps on the floor).
His sister still has poop in her underwear every single day. And I still have to remind them to wipe their hands (plus side - I never even consider eating their leftovers. *barf*).
Kids are just SO gross.
Oh this doesn't make me feel better LOL. Ugh. I have to double up on sheet protectors already as it goes right through.
Confession - hubby decided to work at home today. I was really looking forward to a day ALONE after my mom left... but nope. He's working in the dining room but it means I still can't watch Sailor Moon Crystal in peace (I admit... I only watch it when I'm alone, being 37 and all). His office might close in a few months too, which means he'd work at home all the time and I'm really not excited about that.
I know this sounds mean but we were ALL exasperated and felt that physically he could go all night but was just not doing it, due to a combination of habit and laziness and pull-ups (seriously, ditch the pull-ups if you can). He was also motivated because at 12, sleepovers when you wet the bed are embarrassing.
Not judging, but I'd just like to point out one thing that is often overlooked or simply not known. Some bed-wetting in older children is caused by hormonal problems. No laziness, no bad habit, no psychological problems. I cannot remember the details because I was a kid when this all happened, but there's often a genetic factor and several of us were bed-wetters until at least 10. Basically your body secretes a hormone that wakes you up if you need to pee and some kids' bodies aren't good at reading it. There is a course of pills which worked pretty efficiently. Far less traumatic than the dreaded alarmed bed sheet that would go off if it got wet. That thing TERRIFIED me. How is a sudden alarm waking you from a deep sleep supposed to make you pee LESS?!0 -
Okay, people, I need your help!
I want to get a flat(er) belly for my vacation in a little over 2 weeks. I SERIOUSLY contemplated doing a wrap, but then I remembered, I don't enjoy throwing my money away. Anywho, I am pretty much willing to do anything as long as it's healthy. Can you lovely people suggest things that I can do to get the results I want?
You mention later staying off soda. Avoid all carbonation. I don't drink anything carbonated when I need a flat stomach! It definitely causes bloating.0 -
Thanks for the sympathy. I actually ended up feeling like a complete b!tch about it, because they were SO sweet, grateful and excited. Here's the cake (birthday girl hidden!)@Tubbs216 I bet your cake is going to be beautiful and I very much understand your resentment. "No" is a great word and concept! It can be said very nicely, "I am so flattered that you remember my cakes fondly, I wish I could help with your daughter's cake! I have the name of a person I can recommend as I don't have the time to give your daughter the cake she deserves and I can't do a half-baked job. You made my day by asking me. Here's so&so's number, tell her I told you to call."
@ythannah - neat saying, I had not heard that before.
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Susieq_1994 wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »Glinda1971 wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »orangesmartie wrote: »I really am having a bad few days. I got in the bath tonight and burst into tears. I don't normally cry, even when i should, so to just cry like that tells me things are very wrong. It seems to be an accumulation of things, not any one thing in particular, but i am feeling extremely low and a total failure at everything, including weight loss and exercise. I will be making an appointment with my GP in the morning, to discuss my medication dosages.
I'm so sorry to hear that you're struggling. My depression has recently taken a dive and become worse than it has been in years, so I know how bad you must be feeling. I'm struggling so hard against falling into the pit (so to speak), but I really don't know what to do.
Your feelings describe mine as well, unfortunately--I've been feeling like a complete and utter waste of space lately who doesn't deserve to live. :-/ I hope you start feeling better soon!
Susie, first, let me apologize if you feel I am being overly personal and intrusive.
Have you considered that Depo may be contributing to your depression? When I first took it, my doctor asked if I had a history of depression, I said no because I didn't have a history of depression. Two months later I was sitting in my car contemplating suicide. The only think that stopped me was, that as an over-thinker, I couldn't figure out why I felt like that. Nothing in my life had changed for the worse; my feeling weren't based on my reality. I was simply, suddenly, suicidal.
It may also cause spammy pimples.
lol at the spammy pimples! I don't think you're being intrusive or overly personal at all--if I wasn't familiar with the side effects of Depo, it would have been an important thing to consider and I would have been very grateful for someone to have brought it up.
I have considered it before, but the fact of the matter is that I've been a depressive for years--in fact, my depression was reduced during my use of the Depo shot. I've been using it for a year and a half, and my depression has been relatively mild during this time, although I doubt the depo shot contributed to the reduction in my symptoms. I do know that it has a common side effect of depression and mood swings, but it hasn't really affected me much in that area, luckily.
And I've always had spammy pimples during my period time, the depo actually reduced the occurrence of my break-outs to once every two months or so rather than every month like clockwork.
I sure do wish the solution to my depression could be that simple, though! My maternal side of the family actually has a long history of clinical depression and mental illness, and I'm just a casualty of genetics, I suppose. This recent increase in my depressive symptoms might just be environment-related, since I'm going through some stressful family issues right now and my husband became pretty sick a while back (that was majorly scary for me), along with the fact that I've gained a lot of weight during the last few months. :-/
Also, I've messed up my circadian rhythm and I've been staying awake all night and sleeping during the day, which always affects my depression really badly (I need sunlight!). I'm hoping that just getting everything back to normal will help me feel better.
I do hope you feel better soon!!
Thanks! Today seems to be a much better day, and things seem to be slowly improving. I had my "official one week in" weigh in this morning, and I'm down 2.3 kg since last Monday, which is very encouraging. I know it's mostly water and waste, but it tells me that I DIDN'T put on a full five kilos (I have about 2.8 kilos left to lose until I'm back down to where I was after my vacation, five kilos up from my lowest. Ugh.) in two weeks of not logging, which makes me feel a little better about myself.
That's really good!
Ha, yup. My husband looked at the scale and was like... "No WAY!"
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They are. My youngest son wet the bed until he was almost 13. I was starting to worry I'd be having to take his wife aside and have a word about their wedding night sheets.raelynnsmama52512 wrote: »kellienw335 wrote: »raelynnsmama52512 wrote: »kellyjellybellyjelly wrote: »raelynnsmama52512 wrote: »Oh, and what do the cool moms and kiddos do on Sunday morning? Matching Frozen color manicures of course! (Proud mommy moment, a few months ago just the idea of something touching her hands made her panic, now she loves having her nails painted! Small victories over Sensory Processing Disorder!)
Aww, how adorable!
Whoo for the small victory:).
My two year old niece is obsessed with Frozen! Her brother the one day asked if she was a boy or a girl & she said no to both & he asked what she was. Her answer...Elsa hahaha.
Haha! That sounds like my daughter too! All Frozen, all the time. If it's not playing on some DVD player in my house on loop, she's still running around singing "Let it Go" and proclaiming herself to be Elsa. I've tried to use that to my advantage with the potty training endeavors, but still no luck...
Potty training at our house too! Does your little one go to daycare or are you a SAHM? Ours goes to daycare and she did pretty well this weekend. Only one accident yesterday, but we put a diaper on when she sleeps.
I'm a SAHM. She knows how everything works, what to do, and how to do it. The thing is, she won't do it. We bought panties and the waterproof ones to cover those, just so I'm not spending all day mopping up puddles of pee when she has accidents. She tries, but she tries after she pees or poops herself. The big goal is to have her potty trained before she starts 3K in September. Add in her sensory challenges and anxiety issues, and I have a feeling we're going to be at it awhile.
Potty training was a nightmare in my house. My son still pooped his pants regularly at 4.5. I had to take him to a therapist, but thankfully it helped. Now he's almost 7.5 and he still won't wipe half the time and still pees his bed once a week (and won't tell me, of course, until it's bedtime and the bed reeks and I have a lot of laundry to do the next day. Then he sleeps on the floor).
His sister still has poop in her underwear every single day. And I still have to remind them to wipe their hands (plus side - I never even consider eating their leftovers. *barf*).
Kids are just SO gross.
We had a bed wetting problem with our 8 yo daughter. We had to wake her up and take to the bathroom every night around 10.30pm otherwise she wouldn't last dry. Eventually we asked for a specialist visit via our GP and it turned out her kidneys were not 'slowing down' for the night - she got tablets prescribed to activate antidiuretic hormone and 3 months later - problem no longer exists.
I think this is what I must have been bleating on about!!0 -
heartsstarspll wrote: »Confession: I just saw that I have 2 flags for alleged "spam". How did I spam you ask? Apparently replying to a thread about some city banning soda's in happy meals and saying it's none of their business what parents give their kids is spam.
I swear, it is laughable the things that get flagged around here. I can't believe how abused the system is. I have been tempted to flag posts I didn't agree with... but I realize it's dumb to flag something just because I disagree.
Confession: I am a little sad that I got flagged.
It makes me feel like running away and never posting again. But reading and posting here feels like it will help me stay on track, so I guess it's a trade off. So I guess I will continue even though apparently someone out there doesn't like me (at least 2 people.. lol)
I've been flagged once for spam and twice for abuse--and I've never been anything but extremely polite and friendly to anyone I reply to in the forums, because I know what it's like to struggle. I just ignore them. 0 -
Italian_Buju wrote: »Here is my Kyrie...she MIGHT be a little spoiled....she likes her bedroom with a view lol
Adorable!
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Italian_Buju wrote: »I just wanted to share a couple more photos of my little rodent boy
He loved to snuggle with me at night!
I posted earlier about how sweet his little face is! And that was before seeing these new photos...now I'm just melting! 0 -
WELCOME TO HOLLAND
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Emily Perl Kingsley.
c1987 by Emily Perl Kingsley. All rights reserved
I am often asked to describe the experience of raising a child with a disability - to try to help people who have not shared that unique experience to understand it, to imagine how it would feel. It's like this......
When you're going to have a baby, it's like planning a fabulous vacation trip - to Italy. You buy a bunch of guide books and make your wonderful plans. The Coliseum. The Michelangelo David. The gondolas in Venice. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It's all very exciting.
After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags and off you go. Several hours later, the plane lands. The stewardess comes in and says, "Welcome to Holland."
"Holland?!?" you say. "What do you mean Holland?? I signed up for Italy! I'm supposed to be in Italy. All my life I've dreamed of going to Italy."
But there's been a change in the flight plan. They've landed in Holland and there you must stay.
The important thing is that they haven't taken you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place, full of pestilence, famine and disease. It's just a different place.
So you must go out and buy new guide books. And you must learn a whole new language. And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met.
It's just a different place. It's slower-paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy. But after you've been there for a while and you catch your breath, you look around.... and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills....and Holland has tulips. Holland even has Rembrandts.
But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy... and they're all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there. And for the rest of your life, you will say "Yes, that's where I was supposed to go. That's what I had planned."
And the pain of that will never, ever, ever, ever go away... because the loss of that dream is a very very significant loss.
But... if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn't get to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things ... about Holland.
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@pofoster21 - my last post before bed and I'm still many pages behind.
There is no set number of chapters required. Ch 1, 2, and 8 (Intro, Experimental, Conclusions) are required but the chapters in the middle can vary greatly depending upon what a person is working on experimentally.
Chapters
1 Introduction - what the problem is, what the background is on the problem.
2 Experimental - all the methodology, types of instruments, settings, computations, theory, background, how I set up the glassware for synthesis, etc.
3 Synthesis and Characterization of compounds 1 - 5
4 Isolation, nuclear magnetic resonance, and fluxuation of a compound and isomers - how I spent 9 months of my life getting 0.0025 grams of pure product to run a very cool experiment on.
5 Electrochemistry
6 Computational Chemistry and mechanisms of the catalytic cycle
7 Another compound synthesis, characterization, computational chemistry and electrochemical (this was a simpler system to explain)
8 Conclusions and future directions
Wow totally different than my programs (both complete and in process). 1. Introduction (problem statement, purpose, methodology overview, etc.) 2. Literature review 3. Methodology 4. Data Analysis 5. Conclusion and Implications
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Italian_Buju wrote: »kelly_c_77 wrote: »kelly_c_77 wrote: »xLoveLikeWinterx wrote: »kelly_c_77 wrote: »
I didn't like Grease much but I love Dirty Dancing!
Footloose!
One of my favorites, ever! The original one with Kevin Bacon, of course!
The remake was terrible Kevin Bacon all the way!
Omg, so terrible! And I just love Kevin Bacon...speaking of..anyone watch The Following and as sad as I am that it's cancelled?
Yes! I am! I was so mad I wasted so much time getting into it! This is why I don't watch most series unless they're already over so I know there's some sort of conclusion/resolution!
Me too...so frustrating! My husband barely watches any tv at all...but he actually watched that show with me. The only other show we watch together is The Walking Dead...but man, we were both so bummed to hear that The Following won't be back.
I do watch TWD but I don't keep up with it- just wait until it comes out on Netlfix! Currently I'm fan girling all over myself waiting fot this Friday so I can binge watch Orange is The New Black!
I started rewatching the first two seasons of OITNB this past weekend waiting for the new one, SO EXCITED!!
I love OITNB but every night after I watch it I have nightmares about being in prison and I have the worst night sleep! But still worth it!0 -
heartsstarspll wrote: »Confession: I just saw that I have 2 flags for alleged "spam". How did I spam you ask? Apparently replying to a thread about some city banning soda's in happy meals and saying it's none of their business what parents give their kids is spam. I swear, it is laughable the things that get flagged around here. I can't believe how abused the system is. I have been tempted to flag posts I didn't agree with... but I realize it's dumb to flag something just because I disagree.
Confession: I am a little sad that I got flagged. It makes me feel like running away and never posting again. But reading and posting here feels like it will help me stay on track, so I guess it's a trade off. So I guess I will continue even though apparently someone out there doesn't like me (at least 2 people.. lol)
You're in a special club. Our own dear Susieq got flagged for no obvious reason, which led to the phrase 'spammy pimples'. I sometimes wonder if people will assume I'm a spammer because of my name.
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Susieq_1994 wrote: »orangesmartie wrote: »I really am having a bad few days. I got in the bath tonight and burst into tears. I don't normally cry, even when i should, so to just cry like that tells me things are very wrong. It seems to be an accumulation of things, not any one thing in particular, but i am feeling extremely low and a total failure at everything, including weight loss and exercise. I will be making an appointment with my GP in the morning, to discuss my medication dosages.
I'm so sorry to hear that you're struggling. My depression has recently taken a dive and become worse than it has been in years, so I know how bad you must be feeling. I'm struggling so hard against falling into the pit (so to speak), but I really don't know what to do. Your feelings describe mine as well, unfortunately--I've been feeling like a complete and utter waste of space lately who doesn't deserve to live. :-/ I hope you start feeling better soon!
Oh my goodness you two are NOT a waste of space! You are both wonderful incredible women and some of my favorite folks on this thread. Go to a doctor or get on meds or get a therapist because you two need to realize your worth and contributions and how valuable you are. Watch It's a Wonderful Life and then this of the world without you and what it would do to your families, friends, husband, nephew, etc.
(And Susieq I didn't see the clinical psychologist I spoke of at the barn this weekend. Apparently her dog died so she wasn't around. ..more sad pet stories. .. but will try her again this weekend but had dinner with a friend who is in school to be a clinical psychologist and she is going to talk to some folks at the mental health institute she volunteers at to see what resources might be available to you since you must have dual citizenship if you have a US passport. So I haven't forgotten).0 -
orangesmartie wrote: »I really am having a bad few days. I got in the bath tonight and burst into tears. I don't normally cry, even when i should, so to just cry like that tells me things are very wrong. It seems to be an accumulation of things, not any one thing in particular, but i am feeling extremely low and a total failure at everything, including weight loss and exercise. I will be making an appointment with my GP in the morning, to discuss my medication dosages.
Separate from my other reply sending you hugs. Please try and feel better. Saying that may not help but we all care about you here!0 -
I'm a bit enraged today. I've been reading about a 'protest march' that took place over the weekend in my home town. It was organised by (Town name) Against Islam, which is just about as horrific and racist as it sounds. Makes me ashamed to be from there.
The really ridiculous part is there aren't actually any Muslims in my home town! I exaggerate, there may be one or two, but seriously, it's a 98% white, working class, typical north-eastern English town. Who are these people protesting against? My home town is so insular, my mother is considered her own ethnic minority (she's French). Most immigrants have the sense to bypass us altogether and I don't blame them!
Thankfully some of the more decent locals took some photos and it turns out it was just some pissheads outside a particularly nasty pub, who then wandered down the high street and ended up outside another seedy pub. More people were taking the p!ss out of them than partaking. Still, it enrages me. I probably went to school with some of these losers.0 -
I am back at home, safe and sound. I also seem to have lost a pound on this trip -- we'll see if that was real or not. It was 24 hours of driving in two days to my parents ranch and one day there then 24 hours of driving in two days back home. I *think* it was cheaper than flying - but who knows. It gave each of my teens 24 hours in the car with me. (Ha!) It was good in ways that they don't quite get. My son did an awesome job of navigating on the way there. He's staying for the summer. My daughter seemed to decompress on the way back after her visit. I'm tired but all is well.
Glad you are back safe and sound!0 -
cheshirecatastrophe wrote: »My scale is tared to 5 pounds above zero.
It makes me feel better that I get to subtract 5 off the reading.
Similarly, I add 1 to 1.5 lbs to my "recorded" weight compared to what my scale says, and I only log when my weight reaches a new low. It feels good to look at my report and see only consistent losses, and when there aren't losses, I can remind myself that I've been adding a pound each time anyways.
Same, I can't cope with tracking that I've added weight when I've been trying so hard. Better to just log once a week definitely not every day!0 -
ddrhellbunny wrote: »I am happy to report that after a month of not logging, I haven't gained weight at all. I've actually lost inches instead, which is weird and awesome at the same time. I'm pretty happy that I didn't go over board with food and actually was able to eat cake, ice cream, doughnuts and really really amazing things all throughout this and feel normal.
This is a HUGE step for me because I have been SO worried that I was just gonna gain everything back, but I think because my life is slowly improving (good job with good money, loving boyfriend, and less stress about being in a new city) that I was able to keep myself in check and really listen to my body. I feel good about myself.
Plus, even more interesting news, possibly in 2 or 3 years we actually may be moving to Japan if my boyfriend makes it to where he wants to eventually be.
For the first time, in a long time, I feel really excited for the future. Cheers everyone :]
Great news and congratulations! Glad you are in a good place!0 -
Does anyone remember (long, long ago in this thread) the mom that confessed to flipping her young daughter off behind her back when she's being a brat? Haha, it still makes me laugh. I can't remember the poster's name and wondered if it's someone that still posts..or just someone who stopped by to confess and then left.0
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Susieq_1994 wrote: »Confession: I've done quite well today. I went over my calorie goal by 100 calories, but rather than throwing in the towel (I have a serious problem with an all-or-nothing attitude, and yes, just 100 calories can set it off, which is one of my worst issues when it comes to my weight), I told myself that it was fine and reminded myself several times that I was under maintenance for the day and didn't need to feel bad or guilty about it, especially since I was so hungry. :-/
Later in the day, I felt motivated to exercise (not to take my calories back into the green, I actually FELT like doing it! Score!) and I did 45 minutes on my stationary bike... And then another 20 minutes several hours later. Go me!
Second confession: It's past midnight and I'm making an iced caramel coffee mock "milkshake" (I use a bit of instant Jell-O pudding mix to thicken it, then crush in some ice) with my earned exercise calories.
This was a happy post and made me happy for you. Yay!0
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