Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))
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Italian_Buju wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »Thanks for the well wishes, everyone. I have to admit that part of the frustration is that I'm really ticked off at myself for getting sick in the first place. I've had this disorder for the better part of three years, and living with a chronic disease long-term means you learn how to manage it well (as I'm sure @Italian_Buju can attest to) or you're doomed. I learned all the little nuances and whispers of my body and when to stop and take it easy. But after a six month respite from any sort of flares, I got overconfident and stopped paying attention.
In hindsight, as an ill person, I KNEW and still know that I'm not capable of 60 minutes of stationary bike PLUS 36 flights of stairs PLUS a one hour walk, especially not when I'm fasting, which makes me much more prone to weakness. But I did that TWO DAYS IN A ROW without even thinking about it. So this flare up is all my stupid fault, and I'm pretty mad at me. I'm also mad at my body for not being healthy, which is a common resentment I have that always comes to the fore when I get sick. Stupid body, stupid me, stupid everything.
Truest statement ever! You try not to let it run your life, but if you forget for a minute it is there, something will happen to remind you!
Exactly! I was sure you'd be able to relate to that.
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raelynnsmama52512 wrote: »So, since today is national ice cream day, how are we celebrating?
Well, I'm currently eating a big pile of caramel speculoos ice cream, does it count?
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orangesmartie wrote: »My one morning a week to lie on and here I am, bright eyed and bushy tailed at 6.30. I'm not happy!!
I HATE when that happens!!
Ok folks, I have made it to 1228 this morning....and now I must go be productive again....
I have a friend bringing me two big boxes of peaches tonight for canning.....but I won't have time to can them until next Sunday....I am gonna store them in a fridge and hope for the best.....I told him I am gonna need twice the amount as last year, but not all at once, because canning peaches is a full day, two person job! Last year was my first year! And in the fall I did applesauce, which is a ton of work too, but one person can do it, and you get a long break in the middle while the sauce is cooking.....I am excited but a bit worried about them lastly that long in the fridge....wish me luck!
I am gonna read a couple more dozen pages tonight once I am done everything....my 'goal' is to be caught up a week from now, as I know it moves a lot faster in the week, and I am really busy this week!0 -
My confession - I complained yesterday because my sister, who knows I am working hard to lose weight asked me to pick her up ice cream or cookies on the way home. But then I used it as an excuse to buy myself a Sonic Blast. I very well wasn't going to buy her and her boyfriend one without getting myself something!0
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Ooh, sounds promising! I really hope it works out for you!raelynnsmama52512 wrote: »Guys, guys, guess what?! We went to Oakwood Homes today, just to see what they would say about us being able to buy a mobile home. Needless to say, we found a style we fell in love with, and the person we worked with sounded very optimistic that we would be able to get financing for it. I hope so, because we've worked really hard to fix some things on our credit to get to this point! He's sending in our paperwork on Monday and we should know something within 3-4 days of that. Not to mention, a good friend of the family may possibly let us rent a lot on his land (he used to have a mobile home park) for it! I'm excited, but I don't want to get too excited lol.
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kellyjellybellyjelly wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »raelynnsmama52512 wrote: »kellienw335 wrote: »raelynnsmama52512 wrote: »FluffySandwich wrote: »I just ate a banana and I thought about back when I spent some time in a hospital. There was a girl who sat next to me and started ranting about the proper way to eat a banana. She said that her mom and sister peeled back the banana and ate it while it still sat in the rest of the peel. She claimed to have never seen anyone else do it like that.... and all I could think was ''Wait... you REMOVE the whole banana before eating it???'' I had never seen her way and she had never seen mine.
Most people eat their bananas like this, right?
Raelynn has to have her banana out of the peel, or else she doesn't want to eat it. I always thought it was just her lol! And now I want a banana sandwich like I had growing up (bread, DUKES mayo, and sliced bananas). Oh, I need some more bananas! :laugh:
In the peel! I haven't had a banana and mayo sandwich in FOREVER! So yummy! Pretty sure it's a southern thing though. My mom is from SC originally but moved to IL when she married my dad. My southern cousins introduced me to it when we were visiting SC on vacation.
Yay! I'm not the only one lol! My Mama Tucker used to make them for me all the time growing up. That used to be our thing during the summer, a glass of tea, banana sandwich, and me listening to her tell stories from her childhood and young adulthood. Oh I miss those days lol!
Confession: That sounds gross to me. Bananas and mayo? Ew.
But then, my husband thinks the idea of bananas sliced up in a peanut butter sandwich is gross/really weird, and I grew up eating those--it's the only way I can stomach bananas, in fact.
Mmm peanut butter, banana, and honey sandwiches!! My dad loves peanut butter and pickle sandwiches YUCK.
Eww!
My stepdad's uncle put mayonnaise on spaghetti & I thought that was the weirdest thing ever.
Again with the pasta
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It's stunning! The colours are actually colours I have on my living room couches!Italian_Buju wrote: »GUYSGUYSGUYSYOUGUYS.
I spent the whole morning researching and talked to my husband and I think we might get to go to Peru after all in September!
There are several alternative treks to Machu Picchu other than the classic "Inca Trail" with the crowds and the permits and stuff, and after reading a ton about all of them I decided that the Salkantay trek would probably be an even better option for us. It's quieter, you don't need a permit, it is BEAUTIFUL, and it's higher-altitude (up to 15,900 ft) and more challenging than the usual trail (but they are able to use pack animals so we'd have llamas to carry our backpacks). I've emailed the linked tour company to see if they have space available and I hope so, because we'd still get to trek and see Machu Picchu but would get to do it in a totally different way. I'm so freaking excited and I am hoping so much that we can get on a tour!
Look at this! I think we have to do it this way even if we have to put it off until May because it looks amazing and so much better than the beaten path....
I want to live in this photo forever.
The water itself looks very cold!
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I went on a field trip in the fifth grade and we stopped to get lunch at a restaurant. My friend ordered spaghetti and proceeded to just pour on LOTS of ketchup. I was horrified.0
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When you can stuff, do you actually use it? I go through mad phases of making things and then find it never gets used. I just threw away a load of pear and ginger chutney I made last year and literally none of it had been used.Italian_Buju wrote: »orangesmartie wrote: »My one morning a week to lie on and here I am, bright eyed and bushy tailed at 6.30. I'm not happy!!
I HATE when that happens!!
Ok folks, I have made it to 1228 this morning....and now I must go be productive again....
I have a friend bringing me two big boxes of peaches tonight for canning.....but I won't have time to can them until next Sunday....I am gonna store them in a fridge and hope for the best.....I told him I am gonna need twice the amount as last year, but not all at once, because canning peaches is a full day, two person job! Last year was my first year! And in the fall I did applesauce, which is a ton of work too, but one person can do it, and you get a long break in the middle while the sauce is cooking.....I am excited but a bit worried about them lastly that long in the fridge....wish me luck!
I am gonna read a couple more dozen pages tonight once I am done everything....my 'goal' is to be caught up a week from now, as I know it moves a lot faster in the week, and I am really busy this week!
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Italian_Buju wrote: »GUYSGUYSGUYSYOUGUYS.
I spent the whole morning researching and talked to my husband and I think we might get to go to Peru after all in September!
There are several alternative treks to Machu Picchu other than the classic "Inca Trail" with the crowds and the permits and stuff, and after reading a ton about all of them I decided that the Salkantay trek would probably be an even better option for us. It's quieter, you don't need a permit, it is BEAUTIFUL, and it's higher-altitude (up to 15,900 ft) and more challenging than the usual trail (but they are able to use pack animals so we'd have llamas to carry our backpacks). I've emailed the linked tour company to see if they have space available and I hope so, because we'd still get to trek and see Machu Picchu but would get to do it in a totally different way. I'm so freaking excited and I am hoping so much that we can get on a tour!
Look at this! I think we have to do it this way even if we have to put it off until May because it looks amazing and so much better than the beaten path....
I want to live in this photo forever.
I kept looking at it and looking at it and looking at it. It is so beautiful. @peleroja please tell us what it is like in person. SO and I have a bunch of trips planned soon i.e.Tokyo then Italy (or vice versa) but I have a bunch of places I'm determined to go with or without anyone and Peru is one of them. (Although my daughter would be a willing travel partner to almost anywhere.) It looks lovely.
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kellienw335 wrote: »raelynnsmama52512 wrote: »FluffySandwich wrote: »I had the exact thoughts about getting banana gunk on your hands
Also, I grew up in South Carolina and I have never had a banana and mayo sandwich. Not only that, but it sounds disgusting to me! I already don't like mayonnaise that much, but maybe I'd like the sandwich. Who knows? I think it was Italian_Buju who mentioned eating tomato and peanut butter sandwiches. All kinds of combinations you'd never think to try out there.
Oh banana sandwiches are heavenly! I need one in my life here soon I do believe! Try it, it's better when there's not a lot of mayo, and it must be dukes mayo!
Ok, so I don't understand the obsession with Duke's mayo around here! Also, and please don't kick me out of the thread, but unless it's a PB&J, I'm not a huge peanut butter fan. *runs and hides*
I like peanut butter on lots of things, but I only eat Skippy. And I use Kraft for baking. Kraft is too bland for eating, but Skippy is too sweet for baking......
Just like butter.....I keep a large container of cheap margarine in the fridge for things like mashed potatoes etc. I use I Can't Believe It's Not Butter for things like bread and toast. Then I keep real butter in the freezer, non salted for baking, and salted for air popped popcorn.....
I am kinda specific about things lol. I am also usually brand loyal although I do like to try new things.0 -
@riderfangal I can totally get behind some retail therapy! Better than going home and eating lots of high caloried food! (in my opinion so not trying to offend anyone, I obviously can't stop feeding myself haha)
I HATE shopping, hate it! I feel like its all I do sometimes. Yesterday I needed new pants for work, so while out running my errands I stopped in my usual clothing store, and was in and out with two pairs of pants in ten minutes. When I have to spend time trying stuff on or looking for something in particular, it drives me mad, I wish everything I needed was just bagged at the counter and I could just go in and pay and get out, lol. Today I have to go grocery shopping, which is the bane of my existence......ugh.0 -
I knew buying flour and sugar a while back was a bad idea! This past week I've made THREE pans of brownies (one batch with peanut butter) and a little over a dozen sugar cookies. All eaten as of now and I am out of flour.0
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At that age my nephew was famous for eating anything with ketchup on it. His friends like to remind him of the time he ate a piece of wood with ketchup! He's still an 'anything for a dare' type kid, even now at age 19.FluffySandwich wrote: »I went on a field trip in the fifth grade and we stopped to get lunch at a restaurant. My friend ordered spaghetti and proceeded to just pour on LOTS of ketchup. I was horrified.
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At that age my nephew was famous for eating anything with ketchup on it. His friends like to remind him of the time he ate a piece of wood with ketchup! He's still an 'anything for a dare' type kid, even now at age 19.FluffySandwich wrote: »I went on a field trip in the fifth grade and we stopped to get lunch at a restaurant. My friend ordered spaghetti and proceeded to just pour on LOTS of ketchup. I was horrified.
My cousin horrified my husband when he sat there dipping his German chocolate cake into ketchup. He just couldn't believe it.
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FluffySandwich wrote: »I knew buying flour and sugar a while back was a bad idea! This past week I've made THREE pans of brownies (one batch with peanut butter) and a little over a dozen sugar cookies. All eaten as of now and I am out of flour.
This is my biggest problem. Baking ingredients. Sigh.0 -
Ooh, you'd have a hard time at my house then. I still buy my sugar in flour in 20lb bags and store them in catering bins like this:Susieq_1994 wrote: »FluffySandwich wrote: »I knew buying flour and sugar a while back was a bad idea! This past week I've made THREE pans of brownies (one batch with peanut butter) and a little over a dozen sugar cookies. All eaten as of now and I am out of flour.
This is my biggest problem. Baking ingredients. Sigh.
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Some of my relatives and friends of those relatives keep asking me how I'm losing weight. The same people will ask me multiple times. At first I thought it was because they just weren't remembering the information, now I'm starting to think it is because some of them don't believe me. I overheard one of them saying that it isn't that I've finally been correctly diagnosed and medicated no, it is because I've had the surgery. How I've managed to have that surgery and see them once a week without recovery time is a mystery!
I confess I really want to stop seeing these people and on the way out the door I'd like to slap a few of them. Not with a chair or anything too drastic. I also confess that while I have said I'm using a calorie counting site I have not told them it is this one. This is for me. They can sign up on their own, but I do not want to talk to them here as well. I sort of don't care if that makes me a jerk.0 -
I understand your frustration. Can you just stop answering the questions? It really is none of their business how you're losing the weight. Or just keep repeating that you just eat less than you used to and maybe it will sink in eventually.Some of my relatives and friends of those relatives keep asking me how I'm losing weight. The same people will ask me multiple times. At first I thought it was because they just weren't remembering the information, now I'm starting to think it is because some of them don't believe me. I overheard one of them saying that it isn't that I've finally been correctly diagnosed and medicated no, it is because I've had the surgery. How I've managed to have that surgery and see them once a week without recovery time is a mystery!
I confess I really want to stop seeing these people and on the way out the door I'd like to slap a few of them. Not with a chair or anything too drastic. I also confess that while I have said I'm using a calorie counting site I have not told them it is this one. This is for me. They can sign up on their own, but I do not want to talk to them here as well. I sort of don't care if that makes me a jerk.
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I wanted to share a small victory too. I ate A LOT last weekend (each day had to have been thousands over with the bbq, cake, smores, Old Chicagos, alcohol etc). I figured I'd weigh in today and be about 10 lbs heavier like I did when I overate during Memorial day weekend. Today though, I had a 1 lb loss! No idea how that happened. I was good the rest of the week. I figured it was maybe the swimming on Friday and Saturday helped (or maybe just stress haha). That made my morning.
I'm now .6 lbs from having lost 60. I still have a ways to go though.
I did compare my pictures from my birthday this year to in years past and I can see a difference. Maybe I'll get brave and share something if I can figure out how.
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I had a frank conversation with my mum yesterday. It was her 71st birthday. She's been overweight pretty much as long as I've known her ( ) and on some kind of fad diet most of that time. She's a big, tall woman, so she carries it well, but ultimately there have been health consequences.
She definitely believe in magic bullets and DID have weight loss surgery 2 years ago. She's lost about 60lbs and could do with losing another 40-50, I would guess. Her weight loss stopped a while ago, and she is constantly saying how she eats 'nothing'. She did the same yesterday, and I pointed out that she'd done ok on a decent sized plate of Chinese takeout that I got in for her birthday, and I asked her what she ate for lunch (mashed potatoes and mushroom soup). She seemed surprised and said well that's not much. I really had to spell it out to her that if she's maintaining her weight, she's eating a lot more than 'nothing'. I don't know how much she used to eat, because she clearly has NO idea of what proper portion sizes are. Gah!0 -
Some of my relatives and friends of those relatives keep asking me how I'm losing weight. The same people will ask me multiple times. At first I thought it was because they just weren't remembering the information, now I'm starting to think it is because some of them don't believe me. I overheard one of them saying that it isn't that I've finally been correctly diagnosed and medicated no, it is because I've had the surgery. How I've managed to have that surgery and see them once a week without recovery time is a mystery!
I confess I really want to stop seeing these people and on the way out the door I'd like to slap a few of them. Not with a chair or anything too drastic. I also confess that while I have said I'm using a calorie counting site I have not told them it is this one. This is for me. They can sign up on their own, but I do not want to talk to them here as well. I sort of don't care if that makes me a jerk.
I am also tired of people asking me how I did it, signing up for the site, I friend them, and then they never log, don't weigh their food, never complete their diary and then tell me it doesn't work. Well guys, look at me... I lost 30 lbs. You say I look great. So...this does work. If you are honest and track religiously.0 -
At that age my nephew was famous for eating anything with ketchup on it. His friends like to remind him of the time he ate a piece of wood with ketchup! He's still an 'anything for a dare' type kid, even now at age 19.FluffySandwich wrote: »I went on a field trip in the fifth grade and we stopped to get lunch at a restaurant. My friend ordered spaghetti and proceeded to just pour on LOTS of ketchup. I was horrified.
My cousin horrified my husband when he sat there dipping his German chocolate cake into ketchup. He just couldn't believe it.
That is gross. I have to admit.0 -
Italian_Buju wrote: »@riderfangal I can totally get behind some retail therapy! Better than going home and eating lots of high caloried food! (in my opinion so not trying to offend anyone, I obviously can't stop feeding myself haha)
I HATE shopping, hate it! I feel like its all I do sometimes. Yesterday I needed new pants for work, so while out running my errands I stopped in my usual clothing store, and was in and out with two pairs of pants in ten minutes. When I have to spend time trying stuff on or looking for something in particular, it drives me mad, I wish everything I needed was just bagged at the counter and I could just go in and pay and get out, lol. Today I have to go grocery shopping, which is the bane of my existence......ugh.
Well...we know I love clothes shopping. I am a master at Marshalls. I am a machine. I can buzz through that place in 30 min and walk out with great stuff. But again. Grocery shopping. Ick. When I move to Saudi Arabia Susie is going to take care of it for me. 0 -
Yeah, I've encouraged a couple of people to sign up, and ... nothing.pofoster21 wrote: »Some of my relatives and friends of those relatives keep asking me how I'm losing weight. The same people will ask me multiple times. At first I thought it was because they just weren't remembering the information, now I'm starting to think it is because some of them don't believe me. I overheard one of them saying that it isn't that I've finally been correctly diagnosed and medicated no, it is because I've had the surgery. How I've managed to have that surgery and see them once a week without recovery time is a mystery!
I confess I really want to stop seeing these people and on the way out the door I'd like to slap a few of them. Not with a chair or anything too drastic. I also confess that while I have said I'm using a calorie counting site I have not told them it is this one. This is for me. They can sign up on their own, but I do not want to talk to them here as well. I sort of don't care if that makes me a jerk.
I am also tired of people asking me how I did it, signing up for the site, I friend them, and then they never log, don't weigh their food, never complete their diary and then tell me it doesn't work. Well guys, look at me... I lost 30 lbs. You say I look great. So...this does work. If you are honest and track religiously.
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rungirl1973 wrote: »Italian_Buju wrote: »Confession:
I have not come on this thread for a few days because I felt like the posts I made about my issue with my SO and my issues with struggling to WANT to lose weight were not well received and I felt embarrassed and wished I had not written about those things. Over time I started to feel too comfortable and speaking too freely I guess.
Late last night before bed I noticed I had notifications and checked them which brought me to a few posts here and I saw @Susieq_1994 saying I was avoiding you guys, and I just wanted to make it clear that it was my own issues and not you guys as to why I was not posting here.
I was still posting in the fitbit and Big Brother thread because they felt safe, like single topic threads. Also, as you guys have seen, I am not afraid of confrontation, so it is not like I need everyone to agree with me or anything, about anything, I am not sure why I reacted so strongly, maybe because they were on top of each other, not sure, no idea really, but it affected me for some reason.
In short, I decided that I did not want to become that annoying poster that everyone rolls their eyes at, lol, so I stuck with single topic things, like fitbit and goodreads, status etc. I have not avoided anyone in particular, or felt upset with anyone other than myself.
@Italian_Buju I did not comment on your stuff with your SO, but now I feel like I should have. I totally get where you're coming from. My husband is the sweetest guy. He does all of the cleaning around the house, he even cleans up after the cats that I had before I met him. He leaves me little notes in the mornings telling me he loves me, and does all kinds of other things that I can't enumerate them all here.
However, if I specifically ask for something outside of the norm and he doesn't do it, it drives me absolutely bonkers. This happens on occasion and reminds me of the situation you described. Does it probably seem petty to somebody on the outside looking in? Yes, it usually is. But, I like to be heard, and those situations where I've specifically asked for something and it doesn't happen make me feel like I'm not. I hate that.
Exactly! I mean, seriously, how many years in a row do I have to freak out and nearly kill him before he clues in. The bigger problem is that I feel like he does not care about how I feel about the situation, and that is what is really upsetting me. On a side note, he was supposed to go out with some buddies from work for a BBQ last night, and I talked to the one guy for a bit on the phone earlier in the day (about something unrelated), when the subject came up and I said I was still upset, he was so mad that nothing had been rectified yet.....nobody showed up to pick him up or even called him back, lol. He (the friend) said all the guys he works with now know what is going on and are super unimpressed with him, lol. I refuse to let this go, as this cannot go on another year. We have been together a really really long time, but it seems to have gotten worse instead of better, and the last three years really bad.0 -
My confession - I complained yesterday because my sister, who knows I am working hard to lose weight asked me to pick her up ice cream or cookies on the way home. But then I used it as an excuse to buy myself a Sonic Blast. I very well wasn't going to buy her and her boyfriend one without getting myself something!
I would totally have done this too. How could you not? Welcome by the way!0 -
raelynnsmama52512 wrote: »So, since today is national ice cream day, how are we celebrating?
Why did you tell me this? Hmmm. Lame but I may stop at McDonald's now and get a cone. I love their vanilla cones. 0 -
FluffySandwich wrote: »Anyone else love Orange is the New Black? My boyfriend and I are one episode away from finishing the third season. There's one character in particular that I hated in the first season (I think everyone did) and now I really like her and feel sorry for her. This show has great character development
I love this show! We are about half way through the third season. It takes us a while to finish a season because my SO is only here on the weekends and we usually can only watch one or two if we are lucky as we are so busy during that time!
I hate Pennsatucky, I think I talked about this earlier in the thread. I feel like all the characters have SOME redeeming qualities, except for her! I think she is just a total scumbag!
I really like Red, she is my favorite. Poussey is another one I really like. I also like Alex.
The scariest inmate is Lorna, by far.....she is on a totally other level of crazy than everyone else.....her backstory was insane!
ETA: I see now who you hated......0
I've been above 150 every day since.
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