Confession Time! ((ABSOLUTELY NO JUDGEMENT))
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An update, a request for opinions, and a confession.
Update: I actually REALLY liked the lemon cake Halo Top! It was sorbet-ish, but not. Which makes very little sense, I realize. But the lemon helped to dull the artifical sweetner after taste. Again, if I want to indulge, I'm scarfing Talenti, but I think I'll keep this on hand just in case.
Request: I have that job interview on Friday afternoon (eep!). They want 3 professional references, who they will contact BEFORE extending an offer. I intend to use my boss at my former part time job (which I had on top of my full-time job), and a friend who was also a coworker at two previous jobs, but I'm stuck on the third.
I WANT to use my former supervisor at the company I'm currently with (who actually worked at the hospital I'm intervewing with eons ago), but she's still with our company and I'm worried that it will somehow get back to people here, which I REALLY don't want to deal with - especially if I don't get the job. Not that I think she'd set out to tell everyone, since we're buds, but it's a weird situation and you never know if it'll slip.
Thoughts? Opinions? Suggestions? Thanks!
Confession: Going to see Jurassic World tonight. Eating delicious Mexican "fast food" (Moe's Southwest Grill) beforehand. Might do more damage with chips than I would with popcorn! Don't care!
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Me too!! Eurgh!kellienw335 wrote: »I have to confess, that when a new person to our village(that's what I like to call it) posts a reply to one of the ancient posts, I skip those because 9 times out of ten, it's in reference to the stupid hot chocolate powder. I can only read people eat powder so many times. How are they not choking on the dust?!
Love the first bolded part! That is my thought every time to the second bolded part. Keep thinking about the cinnamon challenge!
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I did it. I messaged my stepdaughter. This is what I said.
"You need to message your dad. He needs to talk to you, but you haven't returned his text message. Also, Sunday is Father's Day and I didn't know if you were planning on being around."
It was probably not the nicest message, but it's a lot nicer than what I wanted to say which is this.
Come pick up your cat from hell, give me my key, get your stuff, and get out. You obviously don't want to be a part of our lives and I'm not going to be your storage unit and cat's caretaker anymore. Your dad has tried really hard to make sure you feel a part of our family, we all have, and you've done nothing but take advantage of that and I've had enough. Oh, and I expect you to have a check for $400 for your tags to your dad by Monday.
Every time I think about her and what's been going on, I get so angry and want to cry (that's probably more PMS) and I just hoped when she came into our lives, things would be so different. I'm sad now.
Her response word for word.
"Ok will do and I will stop by."
Are you freaking kidding me?!
Well, sorry this has been so upsetting to you and your husband, but I have to say that response is text-book for the generation that grew up with texting. Tone and intent in texts is tough to convey and read. I don't think your text to her sounded terse at all. Texts are usually short and a bit abrupt, especially for these busy kids / young adults so she probably didn't perceive any irritation from you. I will be interested to see if she shows up, though.
I'm not going to hold my breath. Also, I'm not going to sit around waiting for her to decide to come by either.
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FluffySandwich wrote: »Sometimes a song comes into my head out of nowhere... I just think about it randomly. Then later in the day I'll hear it coming out a radio or something. Yesterday I was whistling Frank Sinatra's Under my Skin just before my boyfriend and I went to the movie theater to see Sony's E3 press conference (video game geeks here). Lo and behold, one of the final trailers of the night (Batman Arkham Knight) was playing Under my Skin. I was kind of taken aback, as the song was still stuck in my head at that point and it's weird to hear it ACTUALLY START PLAYING. Especially that song, which I never hear unless I look for it.
EDIT: Sorry to all of you whistle haters
EDIT2: Since I've seen the trailer I have watched it about fifty times on YouTube and listened to the full song a few times as well.
The blasted song won't get out of my head.
... EDIT3: Batman's Joker is one of the most interesting villains in anything ever, in my opinion.
I've had that happen a few times. Once I was listening to Sirius XM and I thought of the Daft Punk song "Get Lucky." I turned the station and there was the song...but then after it was over I turned the station and on the next station was the song again. I thought that was weird.
I've also had times where I'm driving and songs seem to be warning me (I swear I'm not too crazy
) For example, one time it was snowing and all the songs that were coming on were about slowing down. I listened and made sure I was taking it slow while driving that morning. 0 -
I'm the younger sister! Fortunately my sister and I are very different, although we're great friends. She was the sporty and artistic one, whereas I was more academic and practical. It helps when you're not comparing apples to apples! Also we don't look much alike - she's very dark haired and more olivey skinned and I'm mousy coloured and freckly.Tehehe my sister has the same problem! She's perfect and I hate her she has huge boobs and a nice booty with curves- then there's me I have no chest (unless I make myself a pair). I go straight down, and my butt- while I don't have a crack in my back- it's not all as plump and such as I would like! Grrrr Younger sisters ...
Haha what is it about younger sisters? My sister is pretty much perfect. I always say I got the bad genes.
Fun fact: My sister looks SO much like our mother that growing up, people who knew my mum but not my sister would stop her on the street and say "Oh you HAVE to be X's daughter!" She hated it!
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I did it. I messaged my stepdaughter. This is what I said.
"You need to message your dad. He needs to talk to you, but you haven't returned his text message. Also, Sunday is Father's Day and I didn't know if you were planning on being around."
It was probably not the nicest message, but it's a lot nicer than what I wanted to say which is this.
Come pick up your cat from hell, give me my key, get your stuff, and get out. You obviously don't want to be a part of our lives and I'm not going to be your storage unit and cat's caretaker anymore. Your dad has tried really hard to make sure you feel a part of our family, we all have, and you've done nothing but take advantage of that and I've had enough. Oh, and I expect you to have a check for $400 for your tags to your dad by Monday.
Every time I think about her and what's been going on, I get so angry and want to cry (that's probably more PMS) and I just hoped when she came into our lives, things would be so different. I'm sad now.
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quiksylver296 wrote: »Italian_Buju wrote: »What you are going through is super hard, I do not think anyone here would feel that way!
Thank you!
We both decided to do the counselling (is that spelled right-I can't tell). He came in to my work today to talk to me. He said that it was him fighting for me. It did mean a lot. But at the same time I asked him if he wanted to be with me or if he was just staying with me because I'm so sad about things. He didn't really say much other than, "I want to try counselling and make you more of a priority in life like you are supposed to be." So I guess that is good? It would have been nice to hear that he wanted to be with me though. We are going to meet after work to talk more. I told him he HAS to be honest with me about some questions I have.
Good luck tonight. Prayers and good wishes and positive thoughts for you!
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On the reference, can you ask at the interview what people do in this situation? It must happen all the time. I definitely wouldn't want it to get back to your current employer that you're job shopping. Maybe they can delay picking up that one reference until after any offer is extended..?CountessKitteh wrote: »An update, a request for opinions, and a confession.
Update: I actually REALLY liked the lemon cake Halo Top! It was sorbet-ish, but not. Which makes very little sense, I realize. But the lemon helped to dull the artifical sweetner after taste. Again, if I want to indulge, I'm scarfing Talenti, but I think I'll keep this on hand just in case.
Request: I have that job interview on Friday afternoon (eep!). They want 3 professional references, who they will contact BEFORE extending an offer. I intend to use my boss at my former part time job (which I had on top of my full-time job), and a friend who was also a coworker at two previous jobs, but I'm stuck on the third.
I WANT to use my former supervisor at the company I'm currently with (who actually worked at the hospital I'm intervewing with eons ago), but she's still with our company and I'm worried that it will somehow get back to people here, which I REALLY don't want to deal with - especially if I don't get the job. Not that I think she'd set out to tell everyone, since we're buds, but it's a weird situation and you never know if it'll slip.
Thoughts? Opinions? Suggestions? Thanks!
Confession: Going to see Jurassic World tonight. Eating delicious Mexican "fast food" (Moe's Southwest Grill) beforehand. Might do more damage with chips than I would with popcorn! Don't care!
Also, saw Jurassic World last night! It was silly and fun. My daughter is quite smitten with Chris Pratt in it - he's extremely manly!
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Susieq_1994 wrote: »*whining* Guuuuuys (Well, girls...)! I got two new abuse flags. I'm curious and I want to know what posts they were on! I hate this anonymous flagging thing--I NEED TO KNOW WHAT GOT FLAGGED. I don't care who flagged it, I just want to know what I said that was apparently so offensive!
(I actually went back to see if it was my reply to MrFitness, but it wasn't. And that's like... The rudest post I've ever made on this forum. Who would have thought!)
*end of whining*
I was surprised that I have a flag as well. I wish I knew which post it was as well.0 -
CountessKitteh wrote: »Confession.... the punkass Kroger didn't have that Halo Top ice cream so instead I bought some 'artic' something @ 150 cal a pint. I got orange crème as I love that flavor and am highly critical so it will be the true taste test for me. We'll see. I am annoyed though the one time I visit Kroger, they don't have what I came for. This is the same store that up ended everything so shopping takes forever. I doubt I'll be going back unless it's for a cheap tray of sushi.
Arctic Zero is pretty much the worst thing to ever happen to ice cream.
Agreed. I want my $5 back. It was baaad. I can't believe they are in business with so many flavors. I bet they all suck. I am pretty bitter at Kroger for not having Halo Top. Not sure if that's Kroger or HT's fault.0 -
I'm thinking that maybe you guys were flagged because someone thought they were hitting the quote button but accidentally hit flag? Can that happen? I can't think of another reason because your posts haven't been very scandalous. Unless you're a couple of mischievous rascals in other threads. Also, are you told if you've been flagged? I'm curious to see if I have any, but I'm guessing I would know if I did. 0
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I did it. I messaged my stepdaughter. This is what I said.
"You need to message your dad. He needs to talk to you, but you haven't returned his text message. Also, Sunday is Father's Day and I didn't know if you were planning on being around."
It was probably not the nicest message, but it's a lot nicer than what I wanted to say which is this.
Come pick up your cat from hell, give me my key, get your stuff, and get out. You obviously don't want to be a part of our lives and I'm not going to be your storage unit and cat's caretaker anymore. Your dad has tried really hard to make sure you feel a part of our family, we all have, and you've done nothing but take advantage of that and I've had enough. Oh, and I expect you to have a check for $400 for your tags to your dad by Monday.
Every time I think about her and what's been going on, I get so angry and want to cry (that's probably more PMS) and I just hoped when she came into our lives, things would be so different. I'm sad now.
How many times did you consider sending the second message and then erase it? If she didn't have the money for the tags, the car would have to stay at the house.0 -
CountessKitteh wrote: »An update, a request for opinions, and a confession.
Update: I actually REALLY liked the lemon cake Halo Top! It was sorbet-ish, but not. Which makes very little sense, I realize. But the lemon helped to dull the artifical sweetner after taste. Again, if I want to indulge, I'm scarfing Talenti, but I think I'll keep this on hand just in case.
Request: I have that job interview on Friday afternoon (eep!). They want 3 professional references, who they will contact BEFORE extending an offer. I intend to use my boss at my former part time job (which I had on top of my full-time job), and a friend who was also a coworker at two previous jobs, but I'm stuck on the third.
I WANT to use my former supervisor at the company I'm currently with (who actually worked at the hospital I'm intervewing with eons ago), but she's still with our company and I'm worried that it will somehow get back to people here, which I REALLY don't want to deal with - especially if I don't get the job. Not that I think she'd set out to tell everyone, since we're buds, but it's a weird situation and you never know if it'll slip.
Thoughts? Opinions? Suggestions? Thanks!
Confession: Going to see Jurassic World tonight. Eating delicious Mexican "fast food" (Moe's Southwest Grill) beforehand. Might do more damage with chips than I would with popcorn! Don't care!
First, good luck on your interview! Secondly, asking her depends on how much you trust her. That's probably not helpful, but you probably know her well enough to know if she's a gossip or not.0 -
pofoster21 wrote: »Susieq_1994 wrote: »TV-related confession: I don't even own one. And don't plan to. I also don't use Netflix/Hulu/other stuff. I'm a television-hating freak.
Wow, it is nice to hear that a couple of others don't watch TV. I sometimes feel a little weird about it because people really get into 'their' shows.
About ten years ago I got so disgusted with how stupid TV was that I disconnected the thing and included it in my regular donations to the local battered women's shelter. Haven't regretted it for a second. I am a fairly serious politics junkie, but TV is useless to support that interest anyway. I do occasionally watch one of the HBO series or a special via stream or DVD, but that's very rare.
Now and then, friends try to convince me that some series is really different and wonderful, so I'll go over to their house to watch...and so far it's all been just inane junk (though I don't put it that strongly to my well-meaning friends). As a result, no cable bill for me, and no regrets.
So, while I complained about the other folks talking about disconnecting their tv service... I have never paid for TV service, do not have it in my house, can't be bothered to watch the shows on Netflix/Hulu. We are like 1% of the population. I do binge watch Law and Order and NCIS when I go to my moms! However, if I lived in the footprint for my company I would have the service I market simply because it would be the right thing to do (same reason I still have a landline phone).
We keep a landline phone for the same reason...my husband's job. We never use it.0 -
CountessKitteh wrote: »I WANT to use my former supervisor at the company I'm currently with (who actually worked at the hospital I'm intervewing with eons ago), but she's still with our company and I'm worried that it will somehow get back to people here, which I REALLY don't want to deal with - especially if I don't get the job. Not that I think she'd set out to tell everyone, since we're buds, but it's a weird situation and you never know if it'll slip.
Talk to her first. Stress the importance of your privacy. If she is a professional, she will keep it to herself. (Maybe give her a "what if" scenario and see her reaction first?) Good luck!0 -
kellyjellybellyjelly wrote: »xMrBunglex wrote: »All these TV confessions are making me fess up: My wife & I love Big Brother.
We love to hate the hateable ones, root for the underdogs, love the cheesy challenges & also love it when they are clueless that they are broadcast 24/7 and just spout the most ignorant crap. Young fools thinking they know everything & getting a harsh dose of reality once they leave the house. So crunchy.
We call it our "Vapid Summer Fluff" ... ha ha
I watch that show every now & then & the most annoying ones since I've watched it have been Jessie & Rachel.
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orangesmartie wrote: »Hi all,
Sorry I haven’t been around for a while. Well I’ve been reading, but not posting. I’m having a really bad couple of weeks and I didn’t want to dump it all on you guys. However, I have missed you all immensely. Its strange how much I rely on this thread for fun and motivation. I don’t think you’ll ever know how much you have all helped motivate me.
My diet and exercise has gone out of the window, the binge monster is well and truly in situ and my brain is telling me all sorts of horrible things, about how fat and unfit I am, and always will be, and theres little point trying. And no matter how much weight I lose, my boyfriend will still never love me and I’ll never be able to climb the mountain and blah blah blah blah.
I look in the mirror and I hate what I see. I’m so fat and just can’t see how I’m going to get it off. And I know binge eating isn’t going to help, but I seem totally incapable of controlling it.
There’s a bit of an issue going on between my boyfriend and I. We need to address it, but I am avoiding the issue. Because, irrational me says he’s going to tell me all the things I don’t want to hear (that I believe about myself). So the poor guy has been getting a really hard time, for something I *think* he might say. I’m not being very grown up about things at the moment.
Most of the problem is I have not been taking my anti-depressants properly. I miss lots of days at a time, and that is obviously contributing to the blackness. Rationally I know I can fix that. I have reminders on my phone and email to take it, but I mostly just ignore them. I don’t know why. I know they help.
And just to make another excuse, theres a lot going on. My mum has cancer and is having her operation today. Her recovery time means I need to be home to have Charlie (2yo nephew) a lot more, which interferes with my life a bit, and well just excuses really. I feel overwhelmed with everything.
I’m sorry to dump this all on you, but a couple of people here told me it might help to get it out. And a big thank you to those of you who messaged me to check in: @pofoster21, @girldownsouth and @nonoelmo @Lois_1989. I really did appreciate it, and it was nice to think people noticed and cared enough to send a note. I hope I can remember to do the same for others.
I am trying to remember that today is a new day and all I can do is try. And some advice given to me in a message was that you will be able to help me with that. And I know its true. As a support group, you lot are amazing.
Sometimes I think about not checking in/posting here but like you, I like reading this thread and it does make me feel better. I think that I'm complaining here too much and I don't want to bring anyone down. It is just nice to have someone to talk to sometimes. Please know that at least someone here cares about you and doesn't mind if you vent (I read everything here and I will listen if you need someone).
I am so down right now that it is hard to find reasons to keep going sometimes.
I'm so sorry about everything you are going through. I hope your mom gets through everything okay. That is really scary. I am also sorry you are having issues with your boyfriend as well. I'm right there with you on that one. (HUGS) If your meds help, make sure you are taking them!!!0 -
pofoster21 wrote: »FluffySandwich wrote: »Had two big glasses of wine and am enjoying the slightly fuzzy state of mind. I just got done reading a book where the characters were constantly talking about delicious strawberry wine and it made me crave the stuff. Problem is... I never had strawberry wine. Is it any good? Does anyone know OF good strawberry wine?
Also, that purse thing is rough. I can't even imagine Im sorry and I hope a good person returns it to you.
When I was in my teens and buying wine on a fake ID I used to buy Boone's Farm Strawberry Wine. Like $2 a bottle. Liked it then. Now...ewww. But maybe a better brand would be better?
Holy crap! Boones Farm...oh the memories. Speaking of..my high school graduation was 20 years ago, yesterday! Whew!0 -
FOR ORANGESMARTIE:
Keep on climbing that mountain, baby steps at a time. Sending all good wishes for your mum's surgery today. Have you taken your pill today? If not, go and do it now... Right now... Good. (((HUGS)))
Thank you everyone for supportive messages.
I have taken my tablets today and yesterday.
@MoHousdon I love the idea that this is a village. I'm imagining us all in little English country cottages, nattering over the garden fence and on the village green
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kelly_c_77 wrote: »Checking in from page 918. I spent the last 37 hours in bed. No joke. On average, my Fitbit tells me I take 27,000 steps a day. Yesterday, my total was 414. I got so unbelievably sick Monday afternoon that I called my husband home from work early so I could rest. After lots and lots of vomiting(sorry) and sleeping and a tiny bit of food yesterday, I'm feeling much better. Not quite 100% but ok enough that my husband went back to work today (he took yesterday off because we don't have anyone else to help watch our son). Anyway, while I am very thankful that my husband took time off from work checking in on me and making sure I had everything I needed and he kept our son happy, fed, (and alive)...holy cow, the house(kitchen mostly) was a disaster! Like I said, I was literally in bed for 37 hours except for bathroom trips so when I came downstairs this morning...OMG! Dishes, crumbs, empty cans, cat's water bowl just about empty,..etc etc. Thank goodness I'm back to join the living because I'm afraid to see what the house would have looked like after another day without me!
Hope everyone else is doing well..I've got some catching up to do...in between cleaning!!
ETA: I hope I don't sound b*tchy...I really do appreciate my husband..so, so much for so many things beyond helping me when I am sick. I think it's just nice to see that I am needed..he got a glimpse into my day as a stay at home mom...it's not just all relaxing with our son playing games, and having fun. There's cleaning, laundry, dishes, and meals to be made, cats to take care of, etc. etc.
Ok enough.
Hope you are feeling better!
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That's the kind of freckles people imagine when they want them - a youthful sprinkle like that. I'm pretty much covered in freckles, which isn't such a desirable look!girldownsouth wrote: »
I'm also in the dimples club. I have back dimples too, which I always thought were weird until I read that they're apparently desirable. Who knew.kellyjellybellyjelly wrote: »FluffySandwich wrote: »
Thank you very much, my dimples are one of the only things I like about myself.FluffySandwich wrote: »Thanks for your kind comments, guys
I just dug out a dress of mine from last year and put it on to see if it was fit to bring to Punta Cana. I looked at myself in the mirror and felt ok... but I always feel like mirrors lie to me. I got out my new camera and took a VIDEO OF MYSELF standing in my dress to see what it looked like on camera. I have to say I'm pretty horrified by how terrible my arms look. Maybe with a tan my scars and such won't be as visible... man, those arms!! 
EDIT: NO. This is bad. I posted this and I told myself I need to stop hating on myself. So, to take back some damage.... I really like my dimples
EDIT2: I don't want to bring my glasses to the beach to get them lost or stolen while I'm swimming... and I don't wear contacts, so it looks like I might have a partially blind trip.
I'm sure you looked fine in the dress. And you DO have adorable dimples.
I went to the eye doctor Saturday to get contact specifically for my trip. I would recommend it unless you have a weird eye thing like Rachel did on Friends. They will, or should, sample you out a pair to get a feel for them. My brother also inherited them, but he hates them (I think he believes they take away from his manliness).
My boyfriend just suggested I take off my glasses to get used to not wearing them, but he said my eyes look smaller and more squinty without them. I don't think he was trying to be insulting, but I don't want small and squinty eyes!
I have dimples too. The one on my right side is bigger than the left.
I'm in the "I wish I had dimples" club
They're not dimples but I always wanted freckles
I used to get freckles across my nose and cheekbones when I went skiing. Only time ever and I didn't really understand it
Count me in the "covered with freckles" group. I have them everywhere that has ever been exposed to the sun.0 -
You might not know if you have any. I don't remember getting a notification when I got flagged. You can check by clicking on the bell at the top of this page and clicking on "All Notifications". At the top of that page you will see "Reactions".FluffySandwich wrote: »I'm thinking that maybe you guys were flagged because someone thought they were hitting the quote button but accidentally hit flag? Can that happen? I can't think of another reason because your posts haven't been very scandalous. Unless you're a couple of mischievous rascals in other threads. Also, are you told if you've been flagged? I'm curious to see if I have any, but I'm guessing I would know if I did.
I have 0 Spam and 1 Abuse. I know exactly what mine is for- I quoted someone who had gotten flagged and asked, "Why was this flagged?". The person I quoted flagged me for abuse and when I explained myself again, apologized, but didn't go back and remove the flag.
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girldownsouth wrote: »riderfangal wrote: »
First time thing. Sigh. Oh well.
Anyway, I hope you all have a good weekend!
Wasn't this the day you were supposed to have the "talk"? Or am I completely wrong
Yes, he decided he was too tired to come over which caused another fight. We did end up talking Saturday. I'm going to try to work things out but I'm still torn. I want to try therapy and then if nothing changes, I'm done.
My heart physically hurts because I want to stay but yet leave. When things are good they are wonderful but I don't know if I can forgive, forget and trust again. That's why I want to try therapy first.
Now to catch up with the rest of the thread.
Can I ask a question, I apologise if it's intrusive. I'm guessing from some of the things you've said you live apart? But you said you've been together 11 years. Is moving in together something you've discussed? And if so what has stopped you?
Sorry I just saw this. Yea we live apart. We stay together (or used to-not so much now) a lot though. We had planned on moving in together but things keep getting in the way. I seriously think he is someone who doesn't want to make a serious commitment. That is one reason why I don't think this will work either way.
It sucks that I'm so in love with someone that I will probably have to leave someday. I just don't know how I'm going to get through everything.
That just breaks my heart. I'm so sorry you've invested so much time in someone that doesn't seem to feel the same way. That really sucks. I wish you all the best because you deserve to be happy regardless if that's with or without someone else. Hugs to you, friend.
Thank you. He was a no show again last night (after he told me he would try to make me a priority...that shows me how important I am). I think he is done.
I'm so sorry. That must be really hard.kellienw335 wrote: »CountessKitteh wrote: »Confession.... the punkass Kroger didn't have that Halo Top ice cream so instead I bought some 'artic' something @ 150 cal a pint. I got orange crème as I love that flavor and am highly critical so it will be the true taste test for me. We'll see. I am annoyed though the one time I visit Kroger, they don't have what I came for. This is the same store that up ended everything so shopping takes forever. I doubt I'll be going back unless it's for a cheap tray of sushi.
Arctic Zero is pretty much the worst thing to ever happen to ice cream.
I went to Kroger last night to pick up a couple things. I looked for Halo, could only find vanilla, and I'm not wasting calories on vanilla. While I was standing there looking longingly into the freezer case someone pulled out some of the Arctic Zero stuff. Thought about telling them I heard it wasn't good but didn't know how to say, 'a couple of my internet friends on a thread I love said that stuff is not very good'...awkward silence...and then I'd feel stupid.
Did buy the hubby some Ben and Jerry's Chocolate Fudge Brownie because he was talking about it the other day. I passed on the ice cream because it's just not worth it to me. Sometimes I feel weird because the majority of you talk about ice cream and gelato and sugary cereal with marshmallows (gross) and I just don't go out of my way to eat any of that...although, I'm a sucker for potato chips and dark chocolate! Everyone has different weaknesses!
The funny thing is I wasn't such a huge ice cream fan before. I mean sure, I was eating a pint occasionally (or a 3 pack of drumsticks), but it wasn't my favorite thing. Now I eat more of it because it's easier to fit 100 calories of ice cream than a 250 calories candy bar plus it satisfies other cravings too (like apple pie if you have apple pie ice cream etc).
Speaking of which, I was going to have one spoonful of Talenti while I was waiting for my coffee to brew and ended up eating half a serving worth. Not a huge deal but it means it's noon and I have 400 calories left, which is pretty annoying.
What makes me happy today though is that I'm exactly the weight that I was a year ago. Nope, I haven't lost my last 3 pounds (132.9 is a magic number for me apparently), but I've also not gained anything in a year and it's been such a struggle at times that I'm really happy about it.
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Italian_Buju wrote: »
Oh yeah! Two people to talk about BB with!! It starts soon!!kellienw335 wrote: »xMrBunglex wrote: »All these TV confessions are making me fess up: My wife & I love Big Brother.
We love to hate the hateable ones, root for the underdogs, love the cheesy challenges & also love it when they are clueless that they are broadcast 24/7 and just spout the most ignorant crap. Young fools thinking they know everything & getting a harsh dose of reality once they leave the house. So crunchy.
We call it our "Vapid Summer Fluff" ... ha ha
Me too! I've only admitted it to two friends and never talk about it at work. It's like my dirty little secret! I've been watching for years.
Edited because quotes are hard.
Maybe once it starts we can have a BB thread in the group!
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orangesmartie wrote: »Hi all,
Sorry I haven’t been around for a while. Well I’ve been reading, but not posting. I’m having a really bad couple of weeks and I didn’t want to dump it all on you guys. However, I have missed you all immensely. Its strange how much I rely on this thread for fun and motivation. I don’t think you’ll ever know how much you have all helped motivate me.
My diet and exercise has gone out of the window, the binge monster is well and truly in situ and my brain is telling me all sorts of horrible things, about how fat and unfit I am, and always will be, and theres little point trying. And no matter how much weight I lose, my boyfriend will still never love me and I’ll never be able to climb the mountain and blah blah blah blah.
I look in the mirror and I hate what I see. I’m so fat and just can’t see how I’m going to get it off. And I know binge eating isn’t going to help, but I seem totally incapable of controlling it.
There’s a bit of an issue going on between my boyfriend and I. We need to address it, but I am avoiding the issue. Because, irrational me says he’s going to tell me all the things I don’t want to hear (that I believe about myself). So the poor guy has been getting a really hard time, for something I *think* he might say. I’m not being very grown up about things at the moment.
Most of the problem is I have not been taking my anti-depressants properly. I miss lots of days at a time, and that is obviously contributing to the blackness. Rationally I know I can fix that. I have reminders on my phone and email to take it, but I mostly just ignore them. I don’t know why. I know they help.
And just to make another excuse, theres a lot going on. My mum has cancer and is having her operation today. Her recovery time means I need to be home to have Charlie (2yo nephew) a lot more, which interferes with my life a bit, and well just excuses really. I feel overwhelmed with everything.
I’m sorry to dump this all on you, but a couple of people here told me it might help to get it out. And a big thank you to those of you who messaged me to check in: @pofoster21, @girldownsouth and @nonoelmo @Lois_1989. I really did appreciate it, and it was nice to think people noticed and cared enough to send a note. I hope I can remember to do the same for others.
I am trying to remember that today is a new day and all I can do is try. And some advice given to me in a message was that you will be able to help me with that. And I know its true. As a support group, you lot are amazing.
Sometimes I think about not checking in/posting here but like you, I like reading this thread and it does make me feel better. I think that I'm complaining here too much and I don't want to bring anyone down. It is just nice to have someone to talk to sometimes. Please know that at least someone here cares about you and doesn't mind if you vent (I read everything here and I will listen if you need someone).
I am so down right now that it is hard to find reasons to keep going sometimes.
I'm so sorry about everything you are going through. I hope your mom gets through everything okay. That is really scary. I am also sorry you are having issues with your boyfriend as well. I'm right there with you on that one. (HUGS) If your meds help, make sure you are taking them!!!
No, you don't complain too much and I'm really happy you're still here and still posting! Keep doing it. I hope it will help you in some way.
@orangesmartie, I'm very sorry for all of your struggles, but I'm also really glad that you updated us and are still with us. You were missed!0 -
I have to confess, that when a new person to our village (that's what I like to call it) posts a reply to one of the ancient posts, I skip those because 9 times out of ten, it's in reference to the stupid hot chocolate powder. I can only read people eat powder so many times. How are they not chocking on the dust?!
I laughed. So true.
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I did it. I messaged my stepdaughter. This is what I said.
"You need to message your dad. He needs to talk to you, but you haven't returned his text message. Also, Sunday is Father's Day and I didn't know if you were planning on being around."
It was probably not the nicest message, but it's a lot nicer than what I wanted to say which is this.
Come pick up your cat from hell, give me my key, get your stuff, and get out. You obviously don't want to be a part of our lives and I'm not going to be your storage unit and cat's caretaker anymore. Your dad has tried really hard to make sure you feel a part of our family, we all have, and you've done nothing but take advantage of that and I've had enough. Oh, and I expect you to have a check for $400 for your tags to your dad by Monday.
Every time I think about her and what's been going on, I get so angry and want to cry (that's probably more PMS) and I just hoped when she came into our lives, things would be so different. I'm sad now.
How many times did you consider sending the second message and then erase it? If she didn't have the money for the tags, the car would have to stay at the house.
I never typed any part of the second message, I just thought it and have been for quite some time now.
My husband brought this up during our "discussion" (fight) last Friday. He asked if I wanted him to take the car away from her if she couldn't pay the tags, and I said no because then she wouldn't have any way to get to work. Although, that's not really my problem. I wasn't relying on other people when I was 19, I had a car that I paid for and was working AND going to college full time. I know she's not me, but she needs to learn some accountability and responsibility. I might make the suggestion that until she CAN pay for the tags, that he drive the car since it's in his name anyway.
I'm afraid that if I keep bringing this up to my husband, we'll have a terrible vacation and anniversary and I've waited 15 DAMN years for this and I REFUSE to let her ruin that for us. Why does she have to be such a selfish brat?!
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I have to confess, that when a new person to our village (that's what I like to call it) posts a reply to one of the ancient posts, I skip those because 9 times out of ten, it's in reference to the stupid hot chocolate powder. I can only read people eat powder so many times. How are they not chocking on the dust?!
Cinnamon is out. Now it's the hot chocolate powder challenge. >_<0 -
orangesmartie wrote: »Hi all,
Sorry I haven’t been around for a while. Well I’ve been reading, but not posting. I’m having a really bad couple of weeks and I didn’t want to dump it all on you guys. However, I have missed you all immensely. Its strange how much I rely on this thread for fun and motivation. I don’t think you’ll ever know how much you have all helped motivate me.
My diet and exercise has gone out of the window, the binge monster is well and truly in situ and my brain is telling me all sorts of horrible things, about how fat and unfit I am, and always will be, and theres little point trying. And no matter how much weight I lose, my boyfriend will still never love me and I’ll never be able to climb the mountain and blah blah blah blah.
I look in the mirror and I hate what I see. I’m so fat and just can’t see how I’m going to get it off. And I know binge eating isn’t going to help, but I seem totally incapable of controlling it.
There’s a bit of an issue going on between my boyfriend and I. We need to address it, but I am avoiding the issue. Because, irrational me says he’s going to tell me all the things I don’t want to hear (that I believe about myself). So the poor guy has been getting a really hard time, for something I *think* he might say. I’m not being very grown up about things at the moment.
Most of the problem is I have not been taking my anti-depressants properly. I miss lots of days at a time, and that is obviously contributing to the blackness. Rationally I know I can fix that. I have reminders on my phone and email to take it, but I mostly just ignore them. I don’t know why. I know they help.
And just to make another excuse, theres a lot going on. My mum has cancer and is having her operation today. Her recovery time means I need to be home to have Charlie (2yo nephew) a lot more, which interferes with my life a bit, and well just excuses really. I feel overwhelmed with everything.
I’m sorry to dump this all on you, but a couple of people here told me it might help to get it out. And a big thank you to those of you who messaged me to check in: @pofoster21, @girldownsouth and @nonoelmo @Lois_1989. I really did appreciate it, and it was nice to think people noticed and cared enough to send a note. I hope I can remember to do the same for others.
I am trying to remember that today is a new day and all I can do is try. And some advice given to me in a message was that you will be able to help me with that. And I know its true. As a support group, you lot are amazing.
Oh, I am sorry you are having such a hard time. Be gentle to yourself, that is a lot to deal with.0 -
orangesmartie wrote: »FOR ORANGESMARTIE:
Keep on climbing that mountain, baby steps at a time. Sending all good wishes for your mum's surgery today. Have you taken your pill today? If not, go and do it now... Right now... Good. (((HUGS)))
Thank you everyone for supportive messages.
I have taken my tablets today and yesterday.
@MoHousdon I love the idea that this is a village. I'm imagining us all in little English country cottages, nattering over the garden fence and on the village green
Good for you!
I would love that! As long as I can eat cookies and have tea. I would make an EXCELLENT English person/woman. Plus, I do a pretty good English accent.
I may have been doing one in my head just then.
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